Free Wings

The Easiest Way - by Mabel Katz

2009-06-10T11:10:00.002+02:00

I just found a nice paragraph in this book, written by Mabel Katz, a believer in the secret of LIFE :)

so, there it goes:
"Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt. The trick to getting out of the well is shaking it off, and taking a step up. Each of our troubles is a stepping stone.
We can get out of the deepest wells just by not giving up! Shake it off and take a step up!"

All Inside

2009-05-28T20:25:00.004+02:00

in a way of concerning i believe "trouble" has an easy breath and short legs...therefore it can run fast but for a short term and it cannot get farther than your imagination.

therefore, u should "make up" your mind creativly and tasty, in order that all what's inside it could take another turn in analysing.

good luck!
p.s. dont try to get an energetic breathing rythm, but let all the energy to refill your breath. therefore, you will feel high and, in addition, no worries, you're on your own legs :) trouble dissapeard.

The Boulevard of Broken Dreams becomes cleaner

2009-05-27T15:57:00.003+02:00

words mumbled in my head and played hide and seek.
they try to tide me up..
selfishly i discover my sins and i turn them in breezes of faith and self control.
i miss my innocence ...just a loss of it and i cannot find any trash back.

i could start an attack towards me and towards my paranoia feelings. though, this status doesn't help me at all. anyhow, the age is not the only one which plays with you and with your existance. questions play randomly and go among your thoughts, thurstly trying to find those well hidden answers which you can't see.

looking for the right thing, it will always be a personal challenge, automatically transforming your instincts of culpability, of your inner weaknesses, in your biggest enemies. therefore, the wall is settled and the reason you cannot attend your target is just a problem of your trust and tiredness, from your past experiences, or from a dissapointment you've just encounted.

its not always the best option to analyse the phylosophy of life, but go for it in the foggy way you might see it. pass it over, walk firmly as you'd just revived from a long recovery, as everything looks greener than on the other side you just left behind.

Lost,

2009-03-15T16:29:00.001+01:00

cuz im back home...

Thank you,

2009-02-02T08:38:00.003+01:00

People from Media Central:
Avital, a really special friend, trustful and helpful, energetic and careness.
Danny, who always makes me cry at the phone, telling me too many nice things:) - Im so happy to be your friend!
Oded, always crazy, surprizing me with his weirdo stories:) and burning me DVDs with movies and "gaza experience" :)
Suheir, whom i will always remember from the field tours done together with the journalists.
Rhyannon, a very nice Australian girl, whom i will share the best humus in Ako, hopefully soon:)

Nontheless, Aryeh, from whom I learnt a lot, acting and working in a professional environment.

Moreover, sharing an office with 3 israelis, 1 palestinian, an australian, Aron the English guy, and sometimes with the peanut butter of Rachel, the American, was amazing:)

woken up

2009-02-02T08:33:00.002+01:00

from an illusion
searching the foggy present
try to cover the future with invisible thoughts
easy, i can jump...

15 days left

2009-02-01T12:49:00.003+01:00

It's 1st February...
It's the end of a former beginning and a start of a next end...
It's depressing
It's weird
It's raining
It's plain but flooded with amazing memories
It's alone - the soul
It's still trustful
It's sunny now - in my office, through the window blinds the sunbean brightened my mind

i will be happy soon again
i will leave home soon again
i will see my future soon again
i will feel a mess soon again
i will be a self-destruction soon again
i will make some mistakes soon again
i will take risks soon again
i will not be patience soon again
i will wait to come back soon again
i will miss you too soon again...
i will continue to be "me". just like this in the way u cant handle.

Simple "nothing"

2009-02-01T12:28:00.002+01:00

Sometimes you have to take things like granted, without any explanation, reason or a normal fact.
This sounds so stupid to me but unfortunately it's so realistic.

men have targets, women have pride
men want power, women want respect
men think they may posses, women think they might get
men gave up, women hope
men have 2heads and hardly only one work but in the way they want..
women have thoughts that dont get into men's heads...

im tired..

Foolish

2009-01-26T11:00:00.003+01:00

All my stars are upside down
And you're not there when I turn around
I don't wanna be on my own
And I don't wanna bring you down
I just can't figure out
What's the good in goodbye
When there are no reasons why
When you're gone
I have nothing you know
I don't wanna say goodbye
When there's heaven in 'hello'
When you touch down remember this
The more you leave behind the more
I miss
I don't wanna fall asleep
And I don't wanna wake alone
I just can't work it out

WUJS (II)

2009-01-17T17:13:00.017+01:00

Welcome to us:) tarbuka play

Meeting with Yael Dayan -An outspoken proponent in both the Knesset and the press of equal rights for women, as well as gay and lesbian rights, she is chairperson of the Knesset's Advancement of Women's Status Committee. She is the daughter of the late Israeli statesman and general Moshe Dayan, and has two daughters. In 1991, she was awarded the Bruno Kreisky Human Rights Award.

Rabbi Meir Azari is executive director of Beit Daniel, a congregation in Tel Aviv affiliated to the Israel Movement of Progressive Judaism (IMPJ). He recently completed the establishment of Miskanot Daniel, a cultural-educational guest house in Jaffa.

Paul Rivlin presented a paper on “Israel and Jordan: Lessons from their Development, 1950-2006” at the The Brenthurst Program-Konrad Adenauer Stiftung Conference on Globalisation and Economic Development Success: Policy Options for Africa, convened in Cairo in November 2006. His publications included “Iran’s Energy Vulnerability,” published in the Middle East Review of International Affairs, December 2006, and a chapter on “Globalization, High Tech and Socio-economic Inequality,” published in The Middle East and Globalization (Institute of West Asian and African Studies, Chinese Academy of Social Sciences).

And was Hanuka - the Light Celebration

Having a walk in Tel Aviv

Planting Trees in Modiin

WUJS - Tel Aviv, 24th Dec. 2008 (I)

2009-01-17T16:57:00.005+01:00

WUJS - World Union of Jewish Students - Dec.2008

It was a great edition, with the students' election for the WUJS new president and with lots of interesting things, concerts(David Broza), parties in Tel Aviv, conferences and trips to the Kneset, in Jerusalem.

More than that, I was surprized to see soem of my Romanian friends that I had no clue that they will come.

I spent an amazing week with really nice people from all over the world - France, South Africa, Australia, Holland, England, Bulgaria, Israel, Canada, SUA,...

We made volunteer work and we enjoyed the sun!

As it can be seen, the oranges just waited for our grab:) and the city surrounded us with its sea breeze.
I will disperetely miss Israel...:(

Life..

2009-01-17T16:46:00.002+01:00

is a piece of flesh art mixed with faith, hope and destiny - happiness&sorrow

Living a war experince indeed

2008-12-31T14:18:00.012+01:00

...the truth is that my experience here in Israel wouldnt have been completed enough if i hadn't had experienced, or had felt properly what means to live under stress and pressure while maybe 1hour and a half, far from the city i live in, there is a war going on...more than that, i have friends and family friends living in those cities (Ashdod, Ashkelon and Ber'Sheva), therefore it was sad to hear that their vacation is not the most succesfull one, spending good reasonable hours in the bomb shelters, that special room that every house or apartment has, from the very beginning of the construction.

More than that, i can admit that i am pretty nervouse to travel by bus in Jerusalem, because of the suicide bombers, though surprinzingly, everyone is going to work as usual, everything happens as it was 2 weeks before. Everyone is concerned, but still they go on and live as nothing happenes. Because this is life..therefore, I am living the moment and without any effort I can say that I changed some of my point of views upon the Israeli mentality and i can even understand it much better than at the very beggining.
I attended parties the days before, i hanged out, and also for New Year, tonight, everything will be normal, the clubs will be full as they are every night, young people enjoying their lifes, though they stay reasonably rational about all the situation from Gaza.

I was in a vacation from my internship the past days, while i was in Tel Aviv attending the Congress of the World Union of jewish Students. The first 2 days everything was normal, but later on the news and the security messeges reached us and we were able to see what is going on and how the media is handling all this war issue.
I can say that is a succesfull war, and hopefully Hamas will learn its lesson, but so far let's hope that Israel wont suffer spread casualties or other strikes of the rackets or Quassami bombs.

During the WUJS Congress, all the group of the students, meaning us, all the participants, were honoured to enter Kneset ( the Israel Government) hearing a speech of a member of the Kadima party, named Tzachi Hanegbi.

All in all, besides this latest few days, I had a really busy schedule with a lot of conferences and debates, with a lot of lectures and even parties in the end.

Llife can be completely advertised in too many ways, but the reality and the valid facts can be felt only from one point of view - being at the right moment, without much make up of the tv ...
Life itself is a war of survival, though let's hope, at least, that 2009 will be better, healthier, more peacefull and succesfull.

I wish to you a great and a fulfilled New Year!
Happy New Year!
La multi ani!

Taking a Decision=The Art of Compromising

2008-12-21T20:35:00.013+01:00

lets learn, rina, what it is to make a decision, to move forward, not being interested of the consequences but just of the real and the closest step you will head to and of what you will rich, getting your target...cuz that's why you took that decision, no?

of course, none of us says that this can be so simple, but the desicion is still done and no way to come back is to happen. What now? move baby, move forward, dont be weak and just think that you didnt turn your back forever, just that it was the best moment to act like this, that was the best thing to be done at that proper second, moment and circumstance.

dont say :"should i have thought again?" NO! definetely not, because the opposite side could have made you think twice if it had really matter...if the "giant step" causes such a change, either is because of the age, when you can allow yourself the most stupid and exentric things to happen and even to feel that u live, being a bit under stress and even suffer inside, not having to know when you will be able to come back at the latest situation you were before or because you just have another plan for your future. Time was not there for you, at that moment! Accept this!

dont ask yourself " but if this thing could have been done together"? why u and not the other?
or " really was not enough space for a clue, a soloution as small as hell but to be smthg there?"
for sure, NO. Why? lost of interest, carelessness, not enough power at the proper moment, not enough courage and maybe no desire, not enough strenght for compromising something else...

time, again, a disgusting issue!! why? why time can make everything? to destroy and also to repair, to forget and also to remember, to part and also to get together. The worst problem is that you dont know when all these are gonna to happen and in what order.

isnt this an endless topic? how can i find the answer? when should I know what is the best to choose and specifically when? time cannot speak too load, sometimes it can speak inside ourselves, cuz thats why we're taking a decision. Time is selfish, not always so friendly, but it knows what it is doing as long as you can see its consequences and its perfect art of creating happiness and sadness.

each of us is taking steps in time, is taking decisions, make plans and explore the next future near them. Why?

my personal point of view: none is perfect, but still he/she wanna achieve things of which to be proud of, and sometimes, it feels that time is not enough, is too short, so therefore it makes us scared.
then, "I should act now!....but oops, i regret", i know this, and still i know also that this is the best, so i continue my world from the last point before this thing happened. To erase my mind i cannot, to be superficial i cannot, so what i can is just to memorize and have a good taste of life. that is why i wanna remember you, not necessary having a good explanation why, but just that feelings are so irrational, most of the time, for me...

However...2009 is aroud the corner. Did 2008 love me?

2008-12-20T23:31:00.009+01:00

I received a mission to respond to all these questions, reffering to my achievments or failures in 2008. Dana, as a hero she was bluntly sincere, though I couldnt folow her, i just said:

1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
I finished the University and I moved in Israel for an internship.

2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I never make any New Year's resolutions. Im afraid of planning fom so much in advanced...im afraid of dissapintment, but i admit that i wish and I think about the future, though not establishing it. Most of the time Im really unpredictable . I take decisions too quickly and im not sure if this makes me the happiest always .

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
No.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
No, thanks God

5. What countries did you visit?
Israel, Hungary, Serbia, Macedonia, Greece, Bulgary

6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
much more inspiration, the 7th sense nd of course my dream job!

7. What dates from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

1st of April, internship at Ogilvy - PR Department
smthg around 12 of July, the day I sustained my final paper at the University ( i really have a blank and usually i dont retain dates:) )
17th August, the day when i moved to Israel for half year
6th September, my b-day celebrated in Tel Aviv
24th October, starting my internship at the Jerusalem Post Newspaper
8th November, starting my 2nd internship at Media Central

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

My life in Israel, that will still continue in 2009, also, luckily.

9. What was your biggest failure?

Seemingly trusting too easy people.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
No.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
mmm so far best food in Israel :)

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Not mine, for sure:) i changed even more, maybe im still having more expections from myself. Besides, my parents deserve a statue of model and support, love and careness. THANK YOU!

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Depressed...well there are several pple, of course..cuz im fucking too sensitive!! Maybe this i wanna achive next year...less sensitivity Rina, wtf!! robotical system and internet virtual life demage everything now; anyhow, im spending everyday half of the day online, so...why is not transferable this thing????

14. Where did most of your money go?
Food, clothes, phone bills:D

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
this year i had to my luck a bunch of things that made me excited: Julia, Israel, my internships, BFL Seminar, all kind of aquintences and foreign pple around the world

16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
Fergie - Big girls dont cry :))

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? happier
b) thinner or fatter? same-ish
c) richer or poorer? same-ish

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Reading and traveling

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Waste time online, spending money on "garbage stuff"

20. How will you be spending Hanuka/Christmas?
Hanuka i will celebrate 1st night at the office, having an event with journalists and after lightening the 1st candle. Though, i dont spend Christmas, usually of Christamas in Romania was vacation, so i was visiting my parents and sleeping a lot.

21. What was your favorite TV program?
i didnt watch tv at all almost:D Claudia can confirm this:)

22. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Not hate, but i keep in mind.

23. What was the best book you read?
"Magicianul" - John Fowles

24. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Jack Johnson and שלומי שבן (Shlomi Shaban) its a great talented handsome man!!!! i heard him live nd he really rocks!

25. What did you want and get?
To live abroad.

26. What did you want and not get?
It will cost you smthg to hear...

27. What was your favorite film of this year?
mmmm:D too hard to choose.

28. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I celebrated for the 1st time my bday in Israel. 22.

29. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
being with u.

30. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
feel confortable in my skin - its mot a mot translation from romanian:) so ..u got it,no? casual and confortable, even sexy sometimes, depending on the mood.

31. What kept you sane?
music. friends, travelling

32. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
i finished high school 4years ago...

33. What political issue stirred you the most?
The American elections - was too crazy those days in JPost.

34. Who did you miss?
mom and dad. - maybe im not so sincere, but i will feel stupid to say all my thoughts here. anyway im stupid already cuz u can understand anyhow that smthg is fishy ....

35. Who was the best new person you met?
JULIA

36. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008.
to trust less & to enjoy more.

37. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
" There is no reason to feel bad
But there are many seasons to feel glad, sad, mad
It's just a bunch of feelings that we have
To hold but I am here to help you with the load"
Travis - Flowers in the window

Another tour, another life (15th dec. 2008)

2008-12-18T10:12:00.017+01:00

There we go, my 2nd trip with Media Central and a group of 25 worldwilde journalists in Bethelehem.

It was a Pre-Christmas Tour for the foreign journalists who cooperate with us. The trip included a talk with the Governator of Bethlehem and the Chairman of Bethlehem Chamber of Commerce and also several discussions with some Christians residents of thr city.

"Bethlehem" conjures many images for people around the world, especially for Christians around Christmas-time. This town is featured in stories and songs, nativity plays and artistic scenes. though, all of us joined a tour of this iconic place. We met the Chairman of Bethlehem Chamber of Commerce Dr. Samir Hazboun who discussed the life of Christians in Bethlehem. We talked with the Governor of Bethlehem Mr. Salah Ta'amari, a Fatah member, about the Christians living in the city and about Christmas preparations in Bethlehem. We had the opportunity to meet with a Christian resident Maher Zaghloul, who is a shop-keeper, and discussed with us about life as a Christian in Palestinian society.

More than that, jornalists met and interviewed a number of other Christian residents of the city.

The view that i personally got from this city was unexpectadly different of what i had in mind before. Considering it was my first time there, I was totally negatively surprized by the big amount of mulsim citizen, load more than the christians ones.

should be this another concerning issue? definetely!

people intervied unfortunately were a bit concerned of the consequnces of their answers, so everything was quite propaganda and less reality stuff, though, the stories were interesting and complex. The conflict between the chiristians and muslim people wasn't faced in front of the journalsits and all we could see was that daily life there is totally different from the other cities in Israel.

Such a close place to Jerusalem can have such an opposite "face" amd life.

The speeches of the Governor was from a solidar personal view, his own view, as far as he is part of fetah party, though the 1st speaker was better and with a more objective pont of view upon bethlehem tourism and christianity life.

On and on and on

2008-12-17T09:27:00.003+01:00

people like to pretend
people like to dramatize
people like to face a a superficial side at a very beginning
people like to be cold
people like to seem indifferent
people like to be hard to get
people are afraid to say the truth
people are afraid to admit feelings
people are weird
people hate, but...
people love (inside, in quite)
people are not innocent
people think excuses

besides this,
people have to read between the lines
people have to put some efforts, not everything to seem to be too easy
people have to discover the 2nd face
people know that the indifference hurts
people like to strive, to run, in order to get what they want
people want to hear the truth
people want to be loved
people still act weird
people need protection, though rejection and hatreness can be sometimes a solution
people still love...
people construct their inner "wall"

therefore, everyone knows how "we" are, then why is so hard to be happy?

Good morning!
Today I am happy.
Why?
Even i dont understand sometimes...
This means that woman are unpredictible?:) meeeeen dont jump now and say that im right...

Facing ...(an ideal world through the eyes of) Jihad

2008-12-16T23:05:00.007+01:00

how many of you have you ever seen movies producted by different directors about muslims, Coran, Hezbollah and the rest of the "gang"?

well..last night i saw a short film of Geert Wilders, called "Fitna". It was directed by Scarlet Pimpernel, presenting "Facing Jihad". Would it sound surprizing if i tell you that here i saw fragments from the Saint Coran, which dealt with so called "prayers" of demolishing all the nations that are not-muslim, even those muslim who are not obeying their strict religiouse rules. "Muslim will conquer the world". They will lead and will take over all the other world powers."

an intervied muslim declared that he would murder his wife and even his daughter, for Allah, purifying the family, if he have found them having sex with other nationality men, than muslims. the voices recorded in this movie were terribly frightened and the echos of all the speeches are not easy to be forgotten and ignored.
a contrast beween this, is the fact that maybe around a month ago i visited in Haifa a mosque, of a muslim "secta". The speaker told us that he is in charge of going in different palestine territories and "educate the people in those areas, just through good messeges and non violence".
He wanted to joke and to relax the atmosphere and therefore he said that in order to come safe, back home, he chooses very good his speech before.

though, propaganda is at each step. Unfortunately we cannot step on it, and step for good.
these believes will never resemble like the easy die of an ant. (like when u cannot see it and just u smash it with ur shoe...in fact, our shoes now, are too smal regarding all the islam issues upon the world). The preconceptions will never die so easy.

The Wall - speechless

2008-12-16T09:04:00.012+01:00

sometimes photos can speak by themselves..

words are not enough to comment anything..

problems will exists forever..

love wont solve anything! dont be anymore only a dreamer...

fear, tear, wall, stone, hard, terror, hate, message, hints, slogans, graffii...

among all the bad words only "love" is mention like a powerful positive thing, and still!! love not for the jewish perspective ..isnt that ironic?

so...what will bring us the next century?

Big girls dont cry

2008-12-14T23:53:00.002+01:00

Fergie...fuck off!

A weekend in En Gedi

2008-12-13T22:10:00.009+01:00

would i ever thought that almost in the middle of December I will swet because of hot weather?
mmm...not really.

but today it happened. in en gedi, near the Dead Sea, there were around 25 degrees, a great time and a weird sun and smell:) sault was felt in the air, but the view took the advantage of ignoring everything.

everything was organized by MASA - Career Israel, the program I came with. The trip was called The Dialogue. The purpose cannot be written here:))) but the general idea was of discussing with Israeli young pple and with us, the tourists, what means to be "JEW, jewish, Israeli Jewish or Jewish israeli".

therefore, there were different perspectives, different mentalities and different experiences shared.

get a closer look (more of the view):

maybe a dream...with too short wings

2008-12-13T21:56:00.003+01:00

i cannot act indifferent
i cannot be superficial
i cannot see only the good things
i cannot be patience with fooling games
i cannot see the reality, i see only the ideal

i can be too sensitive
i can shout out load but for myself to stop
i can be naive
i can feel
i can say the truth (unfortunately im too direct)

though, in all, it was an ideal illusion
- perfect eyes
- perfect stuborness
- perfect rationality

BFL - 2nd seminar - Leadership styles and their implementation

2008-12-10T20:19:00.012+01:00

First of all, I forgot to mention that in these seminar weekends i gained for sure 1kilo:D unfortunately, but we, all the participants got the best treatment, the best food and the best COOCKIES:) TOO MANY!! but none of us complained:)

Secondly, definetely Jerusalem is a city who has a loooot to offer: a bunch of weird but amazing places, explorable areas and also mistical and spiritual spots all around. You can find urself, walking on some small streets, bumping in really nice and good restaurants, plus...here u wont be dissapointed so easy by the food u buy.

But getting back to the point, 2nd weekend with BFL again in Jerusalem made us be social workers, asking for TZDAKA =charity in the shuk (the free market).

We asked for free products (like vegetables, coockies, fruits, sugar, cans, bread, everything that was possible to be offered) to the sales men, for Shabat( for the friday meal for jewish poor families in Jerusalem). After 2hours we collected a looot of food and we brought it to a special center and they delivered it to those family in need.

Moreover, in this same seminar, besides the usual workshops and lectures we had, we were asked to do also an Accessibility Tour - a tour where 5 pple among us experienced how is half hour of life in a wheelchair...We were explained what are the difficulties pple in wheelchair bump into and also what improvments the city needs in order that some things to be easier handled for these people.

Jumping to another topic, i had the chance to see and to talk with Moshe Ya'alon, former IDF Chief of staff. Currently a distinguished Fellow at the Shalem center Institute for International and Middle East Studies. He held several command positions in teh IDF Paratroop Brigade and in Elite units.

1 weekend of BFL - In the Hertzel Mount

2008-12-10T19:51:00.012+01:00

I have spent the first weekend together with a group of 50 participants, representing Jewish communities in Argentina, Brazil, France, Chile, South Africa, Russia, Uzbekistan, Australia, Hungary, Canada, Romania(me) and many communities in the USA.

What made this course so fascinating and enjoyable, aside from the lectures, the workshops and the personal projects, were the encounter and the dialogue created within this group of young Jews, who care about the education and the future of the world Jewish communities. I have learned from each other and acquired knowledge for implementating my personal projects. Still, I will continue this dialogue and i wil use all the connections between the course members in the future.

I.Rabin and his wife's monuments

We visited the museums of Th. Hertzel and Beggin and I experienced 2nice day in Jerusalem around many students worldwide. We were also shown the cemetery of all the prime ministers and also the monument of Itzhak Rabin.

the image from Beggin museum

people who died in terror attacks in Israel

I applyed for BFL - Buliding Future Leadership

2008-12-10T19:37:00.005+01:00

how it started:

BFL Leadership Seminar
Letter of Acceptance – Stage 1

Dear MASA participant,

"We congratulate you on passing the first stage of acceptance to MASA’s BFL leadership
program. We recognize you as a potential active participant in one of MASA’s most
prestigious programs.
In order to finalize your acceptance, we invite you to send us two short written
paragraphs, which include the following information:.
a. Your vision for a project of your choice (a community project or otherwise)
b. A brief description of your past and present experience in leadership initiatives.

Furthermore, in order to allow a full learning and developing process of leadership skills
and projects, please confirm your ability to attend the course during the following dates:
Oct 30-Nov 1, 2008, Nov 20-22, 2008, Dec 18-20, 2008 "

So here i was accepted and i have already done 2 of these sessions. In 2weeks there will be the last session and a nice party in the end with nice pple all over the world.
The Staff says this too:

"Dear leadership course participants – your participation in this course demonstrates one of the MASA project goals: to create opportunities for encounter and cooperative learning of young Jews from all over the world throughout their stay in a long term program in Israel. By doing that, we give meaning to the term "Jewish Peoplehood". You are the example of Jewish Peoplehood.
I have no doubt that soon enough you will all be leading projects in various organizations in the Jewish world."

so ...1st session was like this ->(upper post will continue)

My Hebrew

2008-12-10T19:25:00.003+01:00

i practice this with everyone its possible:) i make stupid mistakes and i just continue to speak without to care too much..
i practice it in the bus mostly, even caring with me all the time my small conversational dictionary. pple who are sitting next to me start usually to stare in it too..

i started even to write and to email in hebrew
i started to read faster - i think Itai would be proud of me:)
i strated to understand sometimes more than i was expected

i was sooo happy to see that i can understand even the salsa instructions and even some gossips of my office colleagues:)

so one day i will be an expert:P = יום אחד אני אהיה מומחה

Addicted to...

2008-12-09T23:13:00.003+01:00

1. friends
2. facebook
3. travelling
4. work place
5. music
6. know as much as i can
7. take part in all kind of weird and interesting conferences
8. good looking but Smart guys (i hate the nonsense talkings...)
9. good chocolate
10.WATER - almost forgot..im drinking a looot of water
11. interrect with unknown pple:) just socializing!, analyzing pple!! and their mentalities

maybe soon there will be a post explaining the top of these and why i am loosing half of my life on internet, on facebook, even having a virtual comunnity and so on..

My favourite lyrics of Vama Veche

2008-12-09T21:59:00.004+01:00

a dialog bewtween 2 lovers:

-Mi-e dor de mare. Imi place la mare ca esti curat tot timpul. Marea te spala.
I miss the sea. I like that there you are always clean. The sea washes you.
-Si esti sarat, nu? Te spala si te sareaza.
and you are saulty..the sea makes u saulty
-Tu ai fost vreodata la mare?
have u ever seen the sea?
-Nu, da' am visat ca am fost. Intr-o zi mi-a intrat nisip in ochi si am plans toata ziua.
no, but I have dreamt that i was there one day and some sand enter my eyes and cryed all day long
-Si cand ai intrat in apa, ti-a trecut.
and when u enetered the water it was better.
-Mda, si am visat o casuta de paie pe plaja, in care o sa stau si iarna, si vara.
mmm yeah, and i dreamt a small straws house on the beach, where i will live also in the summer and winter
-Si mai e cineva in ea?
and will be someone else in it?
-Suntem numai noi doi. A, si marea.
only the two of us...ohhh and the sea
-Pai si nu intra apa in casuta cand e furtuna?
so it wont eneter water in the house on storm?
-Nu. Cand e furtuna intram noi in apa si ne plimbam prin valuri.
no, when will be a storm we will enter the water and we will walk through the waves.

-Te sarut si tremur ca un amarat.
i kiss u and i trembel like a stupid
-Buza ta de sus ma ocroteste.
ur upper lip is protecting me
-Mana de pe sanul tau nu pot sa mi-o desprind.
im really stucked with my hand on ur breast
-Sanul meu e fericit, priveste.
just look at it:) my breast is happy,

In ochii tai rade marea
in ur eyes the sea is smiling
In ochii tai e ninsoarea
in ur eyes the snow is showing
In ochii tai este soare
in ur eyes the sun is shining
In ochii tai este zarea
in ur eyes i can see the horizont

-Nu-i asa c-o sa m-ajuti sa evadez?
isnt that you will help me to escape?
-Trupul meu este soseaua ta spre infinit.
the way to infinit is through me
-Nu-i asa c-o sa m-ajuti sa mai visez?
isnt that u will help me to dream more?
-Ochii mei te vor visa la nesfirsit
my eyes will dream about you till the end

In ochii tai sunt si eu
in ur eyes i can find myself, too
Cu gura si nasul de zmeu
with the nose and the mouth of a fiery horse
In ochii tai este soapta
in ur eyes there is a whisper
Unei nopti calde-ntr-a saptea
of a warm night..

-Iarta-ma ca am uitat cum sa iubesc
please forgive me that i forgot the way how to love you
-Nici eu n-am stiut asta vreodata
neither I havent ever known this
-Au facut din mine un soldat care saruta stramb
they made from me just a shy kissing soldier
-In schimb ochii tai sunt fara pata
but ur eyes are everything for me
In ochii tai este vantul
in ur eyes is the wind
Care ma poarta-n nestire
which it wears me everywhere
Catre un loc fara ganduri
to a place without thoughts

Catre orasul iubire
towards the love city
Catre orasul iubire
towards the love city
Catre...
towards...

Dragostea - Vama Veche

F.U.C.K.

2008-12-09T20:59:00.004+01:00

its not a swear, is just one of the most used words pple say per day..everywhere.
why?

the weirdest think is that pple use it mostly not thinking to sex, but it just comes out automaticaly.
why?

more than that, pple use it for good things also, having a funny relief when something went out so good.
why?

So i am allowed to say a BIG fuck...though not letting u know in what way.
:)

reload though...why?

2008-12-08T23:50:00.005+01:00

o h..i shlouldnt have started this new post now..
m aybe i should go to sleep now, not to be late at the
office again as it happened today
e ven though i might be weak, i agree, and i admit,
but i cannot help otherwise
r ather be straight and sincere, rather doing things
now than regreting&missing them afterwords.

so again, good night.
as a Romanian talk shower would say: we live in Romania and it takes us all the time, can be said, "We live in Israel and it gives us limited time"...

And it was Salsa tonight

2008-12-08T23:46:00.003+01:00

i missed dancing
i missed good leading guys (btw..erwin ure still the best:)!! i miss some of those friday romanian salsa nights, too)
i missed music and even being in the center of attention...oooops:)

random thoughts again...

2008-12-07T23:07:00.006+01:00

a dimention where always i could be happy

almost

perfect

and all these are real images..one from Rosh Hanikra , another one from Golan and the 3rd one from Romania.
the smallest one would fit perfect all others if the answer would be the good choice, :)again...noapte buna.

PS. All the rights were aprroved before

2008-12-07T11:24:00.002+01:00

The journalists' stories were aprroved and they got the permission of the children parents to write about this issue.

Jerusalem apartment - Hebrew University Dorms

2008-12-06T22:05:00.004+01:00

This is how my apartment from jerusalem and my roomates look like. I have crazy days going on with a french guy, an english gentelman and two american girls:) Its a great experience and i enjoy being in an environment like this, striving to talk in hebrew, french and english, of course, but funniest thing is that when i get tired i start to speak in romanian ..so sooner or later we will make a play where pple will speak romanian:)

poate ceva asemanator cu una din piesele lui Caragiale:)noapte buna, good night, laila tov et bonne nuit a tout le monde!

Wadi Ara (2) - 1st Arab College (Tarikat Al-Qasemi)

2008-12-06T21:52:00.007+01:00

Second itinerary was the Israeli’s largest Arab College, likely maybe one day to be the 1st Israeli Asrab University.
The interviewed people were Mr. Wasim Younis, from the PR office and also Mr. Ali Jabareen, a PhD. Professor.
This 1st Arab College (Tarikat Al-Qasemi) is located in Baqa Al Gerbya. It was established in 1989.
- main studies at the beginning were Islamic studies, and step by step, the college evolved in other studies like science, literature or foreign languages.
- The educational programs (the modern education programs) are the main focus on, especially for the Arabic girls. They come here, being more free and able to study and entertain themselves after that.
- Here the teachers are also either Arabs, Jewish or Christians
- The relations between men and women are also well studied here ( as far as it is known the status of women in Middle East is not so good)
- In this college the vast majority of students are women (over 95%)
- The college provides also some programs for the illiterate women
- This tends to be like a 2nd stage Career after house life
- The qualifications and the methodologies of this College want to give the possibility for the students to become teachers.

There is a big difference between the general Universities which usually are based on research and theory, while over here; the main focus is on practice and on technical work.
The dream of this College is to turn into a University.
This is the only one where only Arabic students study here. Besides this, there are also in the North and in Haifa universities with a consistent number of arab students.
Al-Qasemi college language of instruction is Arabic. Of course there was an issue “ Did the students forget their national language – Hebrew?” The answer was that “no, they donbt forget it, because they study it as a 2nd language and also so other facilities in university might be dealt in Hebrew.
The College grant is an B.E.D.
The vision of the Principlal and of this institution is that through “dissimilation” can be better conserved the main traditions.

Al Qasemi has 1600 students and 100 teachers., and also over 12 jewish profesors.

Wadi Ara - 1st trip with my internship Media Central organization. Hand in Hand School (1)

2008-12-06T21:15:00.006+01:00

On the 24th of Nov the Wadi Ara tour was held in Kefar Kara at the special Hand in Hand School.
This school is a revolutionary vision towards Israeli education; it represents a bilingual school where Jewish and Arab children learn todether, helping in this way their families and communities live together.
The school target is to educate human values and to respect each other.
- peace, real life of sharing daily life
- in the 7th grade there are no jewish students
- Hussam Abu Baker (Arab) and Tal Kaufman (jewish) – the school principals
- The school has a good challenge -> how to educate jewish pupils to know Arabic language and the opposite.
- Sharing community values -> relations among jewish and Arabic families
- The school is the biggest influence upon community/ society in the country
- This is the only school where Jewish students study in an Arabic town.

This type of Hand in Hand School has other 3 branches in Galil, Ber’Sheva and in Jerusalem.
After the 2nd Intifada (2000) jewish prefer not to come hereIn January the registration of this school is opened and the school has its market done also in the close area of jewish communities.

Each class in this school has two teachers (one jewish and another one arab).
The total number of students who are studying here is 120 arab pupils and only 80 jewish pupils.

The way of teaching is different and focuses on subjects like history, civil rights, and Arabic language for jewish students.
The main issue of this school marketing is presented through tolerance and dialogue, which can be seen through the children drawings and some carpet hanged on the wall.
Here can be seen friendships between children and even among families.
Arab kids know more Hebrew that the Arabic language spoken by jewish kids in this school.
The type of the families who use to bring their children at this kind of school are middle class and usually the education is for a good education.
In Kefar Kara there are no other schools ( like democratic, artistic or science ), therefore the Arabic children usually come at this school mostly.
Here can be seen a political reason and different relations between the minority and the majority. Jewish people have more options where to go and study.

"A major problem taken into consideration is the assimilation", says Dr. Husaam.

My time

2008-12-04T21:14:00.003+01:00

for tonight i allow a party
for tomorrow tel aviv and family reunion in hulon

special night out probably in "friends' " bar and who knows what other stories will come out ...
ps. i have pics from jenin and also...a crazy story from one of the chec points from the border up to the N. West Bank

soon i will edit them.

1st December -

2008-12-01T11:26:00.005+01:00

BTW...I miss my country...

I miss the snow and the cold wind in my face, to make my nose frozen and my fingers trembeling.I miss Romania...

I miss the ice and the warm big socks:)
I miss my hot tea from the evening..

I miss my wet feet from the rainy days...

Happy B-Day dear:) today is ur day and i wish there to be as it is here, in Israel, a great sunny day...for a new beginning, succesfully and fullfiled thoughts and perspectives in life ..

Today is the National Day of Romania. So think shiny and be happy:)

" ...The Great Union of 1918 was and remains the most sublime event in Romanian history. Its greatness resides in the fact that the fulfilment of the national unity is not the work of any politician, government or party; it is the historic deed of the whole Romanian nation, accomplished out of a powerful longing coming from the vivid awareness of the unity of the people and channelled by the political leaders for it to be led towards its aim with a remarkable political intelligence".

Florin Constantiniu - A Sincere History of the Romanian People

2008-12-01T10:03:00.003+01:00

MediaCentral is a Jerusalem center providing support services for journalists based in or visiting Israel, the Palestinian territories and the region.

MediaCentral has been set up as a non-profit, independent, media-liaison service organization offering what are perhaps the three most important elements in journalism:

Information
Access
Materials

MediaCentral offers a friendly place to work in downtown Jerusalem, with free or low-cost services.

MediaCentral’s approach is to directly cater to the needs of the individual journalists. A state-of-the-art meeting facility for correspondents and other news professionals facilitates access to spokespeople, exclusive news sources and human interest stories. With access to trusted and reliable, qualified professionals – photographers, translators, drivers, guides and of course experts in every field, MediaCentral can ensure that journalists will have all the information, materials and resources they need – and won’t miss a single quote in Hebrew or Arabic, -- whether traveling within Israel or the Palestinian Territories.

In addition, MediaCentral provides expert translations in a variety of international languages as well as multi-lingual briefings on the major issues of the day and those stories which may have been missed.

I am happy to work in such an environment, with so nice and warm people who takes me in their team, in organizing and helping the events and all the necessary conferences.

Be aware, in 2days I will let you know how was the trip in Jenin and Gilboa, two Palestinian teritories. An interesting story and outstanding pictures will come up soon.

So far, i will mention about the last trip, in Wadi Ara region, also an arab town, with interesting perspective upon mixed jewish and arabic educational system.

Keep your eyes opened and watch this out soon!

how everything started

2008-11-29T20:11:00.006+01:00

I just left "home" exactly 4months ago. I decided to take the chance of having an internship in media and communication field in Israel, in Middle East.

I registered to a program which found me accomodation in Jerusalem and also supported me with a month of Ulpan in Tel Aviv.
First month I think I was a bit confused, but step by step I started to feel at ease and ready for this another way of life and living, far from home, from family and friends.

I studied hebrew and again i went to classes like in highschool. Was a great experience and I enjoyed a lot. We even had a witness in the class, kelev :) meaning a dog, too old unfortunately but cute enough to get some food of ours in the break time.

Meanwhile, Tel Aviv had a lot to offer...
I lived in the beach area, ( on Hayarkon street); just waking up in the morning and having the sea view, not even 1min far from it.

It was one month of knowing a loooot of new people, ( 80 foreign pple, from the States, France, Hungary, Canada, Brazil, Argentina, Australia), time for a lot and good parties, shopping, beach, ulpan (studying hebrew), interesting connections and surroundings, porperly walking my feet off in the city. Tel Aviv is a 24h city, whenever you feel like doing something you just have to move ur a** and the problem is solved.

One month later, I moved to Jerusalem, starting my internship in The Jerusalem Post newspaper, Israel's best selling english daily and most read web site. I started the work in the internet and marketing department. I am still in charge with their socialnetworking site http://www.jhappening.com/, a jewish events site, from the worldwide jewish communities. I am uploading and arranging events on the homne page site, also giving hints on other stories and prgrams for aknowledge and make the site transparent to the communities abroad.

Later on, feeling I need more action, as i am a frustrated person if time shows me only a computer screen:) i decided to apply for my 2nd internship, in a media organization. I just found about this through a conference that I participated in, after the American elections, in Jerusalem.

In the end, they called me for an interview and I decided to take this chance, too. SO...I am absolutely excited and happy with this job! It gives me great opportunity to intereact with foreign journalists who are working as a corespondent for their countries, but from Israel.

Therefore, there are a lot of briefings and conferences, press conferences and trips organized by Media Central, the place i am working and of course, where I help that all these things happen.

But a detailed description of Media Central will be in the next post.
By the way..tomorrow i need to prepare some stuff for a trip in Jenin and Mount Gilboa (places in the North of West Bank), an event which shouldnt be missed by those who are interested in the economical situation in Middle East. But more details in next post...

PS. yes, tomorrow i am working if you were confused by the sentence above..:) here is Shabat from Friday till Saturday evening, so the week starts on Sunday, and my brain wakes up, ready to enjoy Jerusalem traffic and its weird people:)

Have a Good Day! = Iom Tov Leculam - בעלת יום טוב

Catching a bit emotionally...

2008-11-29T20:01:00.002+01:00

it's been a while since i havent written my emotionally prases ..so its time:)
I just found a nice paragraph in a book of Amos Oz (A tale of Love and Darkness).
So, here it is:
“I’m not such a believer in universal love. Love of everybody for everybody. Love is another thing altogether. It is nothing whatever like generosity and nothing whatever like compassion. On the contrary. Love is a curious mixture of opposites, a blend of extreme selfishness and total devotion. A paradox! Besides which love, everybody is always talking about love, love, but love isn’t something you choose, you catch it, like a disease, you get trapped in it, like in a disaster. So what is it that we do choose? What do human beings have to choose between every minute of the day? Generosity or meanness. Every little child knows that, and yet wickedness still doesn’t come to an end. How can you explain that? It seems we got it all from the apple that we ate back then: we ate a poisoned apple.”

hopefully you wont find the poisoned apple, but the poisoned person who might save you from the poisoned tree, if it makes sense...

MASA - Career Israel

2008-11-23T15:26:00.005+01:00

That's how everything began...

I can admit that i live the most exciting experience from my life. There is a great challenge and a good opportunity for me to extend my proffesional experience in a such special environment, multicultural place, with pple worldwide, good proffesionists in media and communication field.

Leat leat, in hebrew slowly slowly ...

2008-11-20T13:45:00.003+01:00

Cred ca a venit timpul sa depan ce se mai intampla in Orientul Mijlociu.
pana una alta check this out: http://m-central.org/, centrul unde fac un internship cu oameni voiosi si din diferite colturi ale lumii.

mai multe in urmatorul post.

Zum Zuuuum

2008-08-13T12:33:00.000+02:00

Decooooleeeeez!
bye

3 negri(i) mititei

2008-08-08T09:26:00.001+02:00

1. e bun ca e exact cum trebuie
2. e bun ca e exact ce vreau acum
3. e bun ca e asa cum as avea nevoie peste ceva timp

Care e varianta corecta ??

Ambiguu. Nici ea nu stie

2008-08-08T09:20:00.003+02:00

Umbra: Si ce mai faci?
Umbra: Cum te-ai trezit in ultima ta a 9-a zi in patul de acasa...?

Ea: mmm...pai ..mmm...inca nu stiu, si nu vreau sa realizez. Ti-am zis eu k plopul si-a luat parasuta si e la mare inaltime. A fost atat de generos incat m-a luat si pe mine cu el :)

Oare de ce?

2008-08-03T11:01:00.002+02:00

Mda...mi-e dor de ceva...cred ca de normalitate.
Mda...mi-e dor de ceva...cred ca de o cearta cu roxana...
Mda...mi-e dor de ceva...cred ca de o barfa mica, de un fum in ochi si de un repros..
Mda...mi-e dor de ceva...cred ca de un timp in care vroiam sa le fac pe toate si mi se dadeau toate peste cap.

Nu melodramez ce am zis mai sus, ci sunt niste amintiri de care ma bucur ca le pot mentiona, insa pe care nu le voi mai avea...cine stie..poate niciodata cu ei.

Oare de ce zic toate astea? cred ca stiu..si mi-e greu sa recunosc...nu mi le mai amintesc asa cum vroiam, insa stiu ca ma simteam bine cand erau. Dar le vad departe.

Simple minds

2008-08-03T10:38:00.002+02:00

Ce e asa de greu sa gandesti clar? sa stii ce vrei si incotro vei merge?
Vorbeam pe messenger cu un prieten, pe care nu l-am mai vazut de un an, si ne gandeam cat de mult ni s-a schimbat viata din iarna incoace..mi-a reprosat de ce nu am fost de revelion in tara, cand el a fost aici...mi se parea ca vorbeste de un secol in urma:) insa nu e chiar asa...timpul a trecut incredibil de repede, si noi cu el, si lucrurile cu noi si tot asa..

In cele din urma...am ajuns noi la concluzia ca suntem nebuni..mda..si e adevarat. Ne plangeam amandoi ca nu ne-a mers uneori dupa asteptari, insa daca ar fi fost asa simplu, in mod sigur ne-am fi plictisit si ne-am fi dorit sa stim cum e si " the face of the other side".

Probabil ca ne-am incalcit in niste povesti, care spre surprinderea noastra, oricat de oribile ar fi fost, e bine ca au fost. In cele din urma am ajuns la concluzia ca nu vom gandi clar asa usor, ca nu ne vom simplica vietile asa repede, ca nu avem de ce sa ne schimbam si ca singuri vom realiza ca nu neaparat opusul atrage, doar ca - that bad thing, but good in its intersting way makes ur life not so bored and ur mind even sharper"...deci my dear friend o sa gasim echilibrul tot in ceva rau, dar care ne va surprinde placut cu bunatatea si normalitatea lui/ei:))) cred ca asta e misterul...

Adele - Hometown Glory

2008-08-03T10:35:00.001+02:00

Si ma gandeam...

"I’ve been walking in the same way as I did
Missing out the cracks in the pavement
And tutting my heel and strutting my feet“
Is there anything I can do for you dear?
Is there anyone I can call?”
“No and thank you, please Madam.
I ain’t lost, just wandering”
Round my hometown
Memories are freshRound my hometown
Ooh the people I’ve met
Are the wonders of my world

Are the wonders of my world"

Incredibil...dar adevarat

2008-07-23T12:29:00.005+02:00

Nu imi vine sa cred ca mi-am pus in miscare degetelele astea pe tastatura si ca mai postez ceva...
Doooamne cate as avea de scris...doooamne cate mi s-au intamplat...mi se face rau...dooomne de cata lume m-am despartit mi se face si mai rau!!
mda...pleaca lumea sau plec eu...una din doua e sigur. Si ce daca? i cannot take life as granted, so i manage the consequences.

Am scapat si de licenta...btw..gata, acum sunt si la mai mare inaltime, adica am avansat pe craca 2 a plopului...deci astept sa vad ce urmeaza si ce voi face.
Acum stau in fata monitorului si nu stiu ce as mai putea scrie... e acelasi sentiment pe care il am cu o persoana cu care nu am mai comunicat o vreme, si parca se rupe ceva...asa si cu blogul, doar k poate la acea persoana mai exista ceva amintiri...insa, blogul e prea digital si prea rece pt mine.

chiar nu am inspiratie...am picat pe ganduri referitor la amintirile mele si la tot ce mi s-a intamplat anul asta. cred ca a fost cel mai incarcat an EVER din viata mea, si cu bune si cu rele, si cu foarte multe schimbari, din care una va incepe luna viitoare.

See u folks, from another environment, hotter and more spiritual:P
just me...

Sfarsit...

2008-06-13T16:45:00.000+02:00

Doamne ajuta...

Yom Ha'atzmaut

2008-05-08T10:50:00.001+02:00

peace, joy and freedom..all in middle east :) suna a pleonasm?
yala yala ISRAEL!!!

Indragostita?...

2008-04-01T23:02:00.002+02:00

haha ....
still thinking...
still without courage...
still doubtful...
still admiring what's looking good..
still desire more for myself..
still cannot limitate mt desires...:)))
still maybe being too blank in this moment...
but...
wanting...
good moments...but
you can bring to me a great mind with innovative ideas, good orientation and lightened perspectives..
cred ca sunt putin ametita de la o cuba libre si vreau sa ma simt indragostita...iar daca as vrea sa am ce face cu timpul meu liber..ei..da ..l-as petrece cu tine:)
chiar daca afara e o vreme de ***** ...si nu zic de 5stele..., is always space for positive thoughts.
good night.

Chiar se poate

2008-03-22T22:20:00.002+01:00

"Un glont ar fi probabil cea mai scurta rezolvare la ceea ce vrem cu totii câteodată. O lama pe verticala ar fi chiar stupid. E chiar aiurea sa treci pe langa viata si sa ignori atatea lucruri care pot fi asa de minunate. Un gust ce-ti poate aduce aminte de copilarie; un miros ce te trezeste din pat si te provoaca la o zi plina de activitati; o raza de lumina ce-ti surade prin perdea si te scoate afara din casa; o inbratisare care-ti spune ca totul va fi bine, care te surprinde cu toate ca te asteptai, care te uimeste cu toate ca stiai ca te va atinge, care te lasa tremurand ca nici un alt lucru care te-a facut sa tremuri vreodată; un sarut, care te trezeste la viata si face ca tot ceea ce a existat pana atunci sa nu conteze; o soapta care in cele mai negre zile te scoate la lumina si te face sa zambesti, lasand grijile sa para un nonsens stiind ca acel glas te sustine si te alinta..."
dragostea e chiar stupida. dupa indelungate episoade te ridici si cazi din nou, te repeti in acel cerc vicios si totusi nu te poti opri. exista trei feluri principale de oameni, cei care traiesc si iubesc, si cei care se realizeaza, si cei frustrati de viata celorlalti. La ce folos toata minunăţia asta daca n-ai de gând sa o împărţi decât cu tine!!!

*cer aprobarea de copywriting...si muza inspiratoare unui blogger

Cine nu vrea?...

2008-03-22T22:15:00.002+01:00

Am gasit o fraza ce o gandesc asemanator, cu unele modificari personale, pe ici si colo: As avea 7 stari si 7 variante sa scriu asta; avem 6 simturi de care ne bucuram (unii), 5 elemente de care avem nevoie sa traim, 4 lucruri ce-mi sunt importante ar fi: eu, el, realitatea si visele; 3 lucruri despre mine ar fi prea putine, 2 randuri ar fi prea usor, deci o sa ma rezum la 1 singur cuvant: vreau! :)

Halucinatii

2008-03-12T20:53:00.000+01:00

aberez. prezic. intuiesc.
nu costa nimic.
feel free.

Feel Pink

2008-03-12T20:29:00.003+01:00

today i feel pink. what this means?
well is an abstract flavour of being pretty confused but happy:)
suna cam ambiguu dar nu incerc sa ma fac inteleasa. am facut social networking azi:) muuult "social" si mai putin "working" dar cine stie ce urmeaza:)
plus ca azi am avut chef sa port fusta scurta de blugi cu ciorapi cu floricele ...idSerios stii k mi-am gasit o pereche chiar foarte reusiti!! acum urmeaza si elf sa zik de sosetele ei kaki si visul e gata:)
Facebook-ul ma exaspereaza..azi am stat as a freaked out almost 12 hours:d connected on it ...doar analizand pt o "lucrare aka academica" de 50 de pagini- noua structura de redactare a licentei hotarata de SNSPA...dar nu ma plang, ci din contra zic ca e mai ok.
chiar daca a fost zi pink, mintea a luat-o pe nuante decolorate, combinate de dimineata cu cativa nori gri si prafuiti, la amiaza cu o pata de roz picant de la raza de soare ce m-a surprins placut, dar nu pe o terasa...iar seara cu un gand brutal si dureros de un roz tipator incat am inchis ochii si am zis sa revin la rozul pal si caldut din prima faza a imaginii de azi. furtuna s-a calmat, incat grey mixed with me today did best:)
believe in colours, have faith in imagination, create ur world and be addicted to ur own power:)
just...another day is coming up!

de ce nu trece timpul asa cum vreau eu?

2008-03-02T18:03:00.003+01:00

e deja 2martie... e deja luna in care incept sa devin stresata ca e prea frumos afara si licenta se apropie.. stresata ca inca nu am primit un feedback pe care inca il astept..stresata ca timpul trece pe langa mine nu asa cum vreau sa trec si eu odata cu el.
asta e luna cadourilor de primavara:) o fac eu asa...nu a inceput rau..sa zicem cu o masa la un restaurant chinezesc si cateva martisoare de la cativa prieteni de la care chiar nu ma asteptam,
vesti mai bune si mai rele, k deh...nu se poate numai soare pe alee, dar totul inspre bine, incat :The problems are actually a sign that i am getting somewhere.
Merci IdSerios pt melodia de azi : Amy Macdonald - This is the Life
Sa va mearga la suflet:) un martisor colorat pentru voi toti!

Si primavara de anul asta...

2008-02-21T08:48:00.003+01:00

este a 3-a primavara in "prea minunatul Bucuresti". de fiecare data incerc sa-i gasesc acel iz de prospetime si de buna dispozitie ce mi-l da prima raza de soare ...cum era acasa..., odata, fara aglomeratie si cuprinsa de un aer mai respirabil..insa imi place..ma simt bine!
ieri m-am pierdut in ganduri in drum spre curs. am ales sa merg o statie pe jos tocmai din cauza vremii de afara.
primavara se screme sa ne mangaie usor asa cum stie ea cel mai bine, ca o matza blanda ce zgarie rau (la mine pe dinauntru:) uneori imi da niste fiori..dar se combina si cu placere si in concluzie iubesc primavara. o iubesc tocmai pentru misterul ei, ca nu se arata deodata cu adevarata ei fata si o descopar treptat cu fitzele ei si cu lucrurile calde ce poate sa le ofere.
deci..nu o sa o stresez sau sa o presez sa ma "gadile" in talpa sau pe buze cu razele soarelui ce inca le pastreaza bine de tot, nu o sa ma rog de ea sa-mi ofere inca acel imbold de a incepe orice cu optimism si nu ii cer inca sa-mi inunde camera de gandurile ei noi si 'ravasite' de verdele crud si ghioceii plecati, rusinosi, asemeni sentimentelor ce se ivesc in mine in acest anotimp..devin mai sensibila si mai melancolica dar cu mai multa putere de munca si cu mai multa incredere.
primavara trecuta revine ca un flash:) a fost ceva altfel ..el stie si el mi-a pus-o in brate ca pe un copil drag, sa il indragesc si sa-l privesc asa cum creste...spiritual bineinteles:)
deci..pas cu pas primavara incepe sa stea in patru labe si pas cu pas..vine spre mine..asa..bravoooo! te ador!

Narcisista si melancolica

2008-02-07T19:06:00.000+01:00

stau si ma uit in gol...ca tampa ...nu pot sa invat:( mi s-a luat, nu mai am stare, ma batzai ca disperata pe scaun stau si stau si stau si ma uit in gol...pana cand imi cad ochii pe monitor, pe pagina de blog, si ma vad...si iar ma vad..in nu mai mult de 3 poze...si zic...e prea muuuult!!! wtf! macar nu mi le modific cum face jack, la fiecare post cate una:))) kidding jack no offence even is nice! eu nu stiu meserie si de asta rad de ciuda mai mult...
anyway...ajung cu mandrie la ideea ca sunt narcisista..iuuuhuu ce deliciu ..ma gasesc in 3poze si langa 3 copaci.
ce astept eu de la natura? de ce nu mi-am dat seama decat abia acum cat de asemanatoare sunt cele 3poze ale mele? de ce imi descopar acum latura asta de narcisista? sau cred ca nu am vrut sa recunosc pana acum...
gata...de maine schimb o poza in sepia;))))
gataaaa acum la citit cu mine, de data asta ma pun in pat cu picioarele pe perete, intinse; da' ce nu stiai ca e mai sanatos sa stai cu picioarele la inaltime macar acum, ca acel "cap" nu e de gasit la ora actuala.
saluty!

Leapsa 2

2008-02-07T16:14:00.000+01:00

Am ajuns in sfarsit si pe la jumatatea celui ultim curs pt examenul de maine si acum fac o pauza..relaxata fiind, incat oricum stiu ca am sa fac o varza la Halic..but is ok...just a new custom of mine pe luna asta.
Si acum sa incep...
Leapsa o sa o indeplinesc pas cu pas ca sa va fac sa intelegeti si apoi sa aiba o chinuiala placuta si restul "muschetarilor" carora le-o voi pasa.

1. Ia cartea care este cea mai aproape de tine
mmmm..sa vedem..analiza imaginii organizatiei, dar nu o vreti, sunt sigura, insa o eclipseaza ceva beletristica in engleza (acum sa nu ma faceti fitzoasa dar imi lipseste engleza din liceu...si imi place sa mai citesc in engleza), incat Leave the Grave Green by Deborah Crombie e si ea pe aici.

2. deschide-o la pagina 123
si purced...asa..e spre sfarsitul capitolului 6..bun..

3. gaseste a 5-a propozitie sau fraza

"Indeed." :)) funny ..sa ma consider norocoasa?e o propozitie,nu? sau mai degraba voi ghinionisti ca nu stiti care e tema cartii:P... bine ...hai ca la al4-lea task..trebuie sa dau urmatoarele 4 propozitii....so:

4. "My point is that although that is a lovely countryside, a veritabe Eden, if you will, it is also a place where change occurs slowly and things are not easily forgotten. There has been a dwelling of some sort at Badger's End since Medieval times, at the least. The facade of the present house is Victorian, but some of the less visible parts of the house go back much further.
Tell me what you remember about that November?"

cartea nu e chiar asa sensitive ca filmul "Sweet November" care mi-a placut mult, in ciuda prietenelor mele care nu gusta sa zic asa "dulcegariile" :) , dar pe care le insarcinez cu leapsa asta,,,incat the ball is now on Elf' , Ioana', George' and Jack's.
see ya and bafta maine la toata lumea!

Leapsa

2008-02-05T19:12:00.000+01:00

merci de leapsa primita, Edi. promit sa raspund in urmatorul post.
ma simt la telefonul fara fir:) hai k ne jucam mai tarziu putin. promit ca "ies afara" ;)

Obsesii

2008-02-05T18:44:00.001+01:00

da...am ajuns sa fiu dependenta, chiar obsedata!!! de "ceva", nu de "cineva"...cu toate ca nu ar fi rau sa existe si un "cineva" care sa creeze o obsesie frumoasa...k de celalalt tip nu se pune problema de lipsuri...dar asta e alta poveste.
Cum ziceam...nu ma pot controla...ma opresc la toate rodipet-urile si citesc prefatele cartilor lui Liiceanu si ma abtin sa nu le cumpar pana nu termin sesiunea..asa cum nu am facut cu cartea "Pe tocuri" de Mihaela Nicola, pe care v-o recomandat cu incredere pentru ca pe mine m-a satisfacut pe deplin:)
deci...in loc sa citesc din scoarta-n scoarta cursul lui Bogdan Teodorescu - 5 milenii de manipulare, dealtfel o carte deloc usoara dar care iti deschide apetitul la lectura si careia ii multumesc ca mi-a luminat idiotenia existenta, in sensul ca as mai citi-o inca odata pentru a retine lucruri care chiar pot impresiona...intr-o discutie. o idee generala: mi am imbogatit cunostintele in manipulare, in istorie, povesti si tot ce poate fi interesant prezentat de o minte deosebita ca a domnului Teodorescu ( pe care l-am aplaudat la ultimul curs, incat a fost un google viu si un impresionant profesor).
alta obsesie...facebook..nu trece 2minute de cum intru' pe net si sar pe pagina mea de facebook...ca sa aflu acolo...cine cu cine e intr-o relatie:), cine, ce muzica asculta, mai dau de un blog si poze cu prietenii pe care nu i-am mai vazut de luni de zile...si mai mult citesc horoscopul...si MAI MULT...raman socata cat de bine se potriveste...si..deci si prin urmare sunt obsedata de utopicul existential, de lumea virtuala, de timpul limitat ce nu-mi acorda sansa sa ma vad cu toata lumea.
Un ceai e prea putin, o discutie pe mess abia k imi deschide pofta de a ma vedea cu acel careva, o vorba pe skype devine o enervare amplificata ca acela/aceea e prea departe ..si tot asa...
cand am sa fiu obsedata ca totul e prea roz in jur? cred ca atunci va fi obsesia de a decolora rozul si a-l face putin mai inchis...de a fi obsedata de a fi in jocul obsesiei vechi...de a avea totusi motive pentru care sa ma zbat si sa aduc fericirea la mine, zidita treptat de mine, prin mine si...cu "el"- lucrul existential, unul din motivele totusi importante de a dori sa respir si sa-mi tin mintea ocupata.
multumesc obsesiei mele neobosite :D
bafta la campania de PR...ink google-uiesc daca a intrat in comert iPhone ul in Romania..sa vad daca refac campania de lansare sau o fac asemeni uneia de informare publica...plus..Halic..care ma zgarie deja pe creier barba :D lunga a unui curs destul de "nesociabil" ca de ultim examen pe sesiunea asta....deci ne vedem dupa 8 februarie..intr-o alta aura.
Pana atunci ma mai gandesc la o strategie de fundraising.
enjoy ur way..have a great day!

Masca delicata a fost inselata

2008-01-26T14:49:00.001+01:00

acum masca vesela se transforma. nu are sens sa mai ramana o masca; acum simturile prind radacini din ce in ce mai puternice. astfel, masca va invia si va prinde contur treptat. Da! voi avea de ce sa fiu vesela. am scapat de umbre, am scapat de nesimtire, am scapat de minciuna, am scapat! acum am sa revin la mine, am sa fiu "acea pata ce prinde culoare, dar care nu ti murdareste haina, ci o acopera cu un suras ce te poate face fericit".
si azi e soare...si azi am sa continui sa am un ranjet complet.

PS. ranjet complet = zambet cu subinteles ce cuprinde si ganduri ascunse.
PSS. soarele completeaza ziua si cu The Cat Empire, super formatie - a six-piece band, based in Melbourne, Australia. Their sound is often described as a fusion of jazz, ska, funk and rock with heavy Latin influences. The band has toured extensively throughout Australia, the US and Europe and has released four distinct albums with the first two reaching double platinum status and the third receiving an ARIA Music Award for best world album.
Multumiri lui George:) cred ca am sa-ti accept prietenia...ma cuceresti pe zi ce trece, si ma pui sa am o dilema noua:)))) hugs and enjoy the law of communication.
*gata, acum revin la invatat pentru un examen de zile mari...pe un Sly foarte reusit. da-i bataie....

Put on a Happy Face

2008-01-24T14:38:00.000+01:00

Trageti clopotele!! pasarelele ciripesc, e soare si fruumoooos si eu am postat!!!
clipa aceasta e foarte grea...nu stiu cu ce sa incep. s-au intamplat atat de multe lucruri incat simt cum existenta mea s-a mai schimbat si profit de ea prin a-mi intari simturile si gandirea.
Intre timp, de la "rebeliunea" postata, mintea mea a calatorit, a clocit si s-a sucit prin multe colturi, prea putin primitoare, dar interesante si sinucigase. da...si nu exagerez.
mi-am propus sa nu ma mai lamentez despre fenomenul "dragoste", dar nu pot ca aici nu am fiert foarte bine neuronul...mi-am zis ca tre sa fie si o partea rea dar frumoasa, un gand urat dar cu multe semnificatii, o parte buna a celor trecute ca s-au intamplat.
cum zicea George:) gandurile mici si negre sunt la putere. eu le-am votat din plin si cred ca au potential sa schimbe ceva. Doar ca acel gand al meu, oricat de mic ar fi, va fi trecut pe sub o raza de soare..asa cum a fost azi...Azi gandul meu si-a luat o masca vesela. Azi sunt ok, nu-mi ramane decat sa fac colectie de cat mai multe masti...delicate.

Rebel

2007-07-17T20:31:00.000+02:00

Everybody’s gotta learn sometimes…
Eternal Sunshine of a spotless mind….
Cine vrea sa petreaca asa mult timp cu cineva pentru ca in cele din urma sa descopere ca e o straina
Stai…
Ce vrei?
Doar mai stai..nu stiu, mai stai …sa mai astepti un pic..
Sunt o notiune abstracta (…) sunt doar o fata sucita care-si cauta linistea sufleteasca. Nu sunt perfecta.
Nu vad nimic la tine care sa nu-mi placa.
Dar ai sa vezi
Nu reusesc sa vad
Dar ai sa vezi. Stii tu, ai sa gasesti unele lucruri..iar eu o sa ma plictisesc cu tine si o sa ma simt prinsa in cursa, pt ca asta se intampla de obicei cu mine.
Bine.
Bine.
(si rad amandoi…)
Change ur heart look aroud…and I need u like the sunshine…everybody’s gotta learn sometimes…
Si mai pui ca si “La capatul lumii si in tara aspra a minunilor” e pe aceeasi filosofie a constiintei si a problemei sufletului si a memoriei, a umbrei si a amintirilor, a faptului ca doar noi facem ca din plastilina universul ce ne inconjoara si imaginatia …un contur ca un imperfect perfect.

Suflet Nebun

2007-07-17T20:30:00.001+02:00

ma atragi..pur si simplu ma atragi..ma involbura o caldura patimasa...cu gandul mereu la tine...la acea fire nestatornica ...scriu aceste cuvinte pe muzica Blackmore's Night...Home again...asa cum ma simt si eu langa tine..in largul meu..complet purtata de instincte si ganduri lasate sa danseze pe pielea ta..pur si simplu te simt ca fiind mereu prea aproape de mine...iti simt acea energie, si totodata acea liniste, a sufletului meu, liniste ca esti tu.stiu ca vei fi mereu acelasi...acelasi nebun prins de o instabilitate furata de imprevizibilitatea sufletului..nu esti deci tu vinovatul...de aceea nu te pot goni de aici, chiar si vantul tine cu tine si nu te darama, nu vrea sa ma asculte. esti norocos, poate cel mai norocos om pe care il cunosc.stiu ca vei fi mereu purtat de sentimente care nu le vei arata, stiu ca vei fi mereu sub o influienta pictata parca de un artist absurd.stiu ca nu ma vei uita..stiu ca a mai ramas putin timp...stiu ca mi-e frica sa ma culc..pt ca maine va fi un altfel de rasarit...unul care nu seamana cu cel care il visam cu tine...stiu ca nu am reusit sa avem unul al nostru...de fapt, e mai mult acea iluzie ca toate lucrurile sa fie impachetate cu tine...doar ca totul e sub lumina unei impresii ratacite in mintea mea.Pare ca stiu multe..insa defapt visul nu ramane decat ca o viziune pala in ochiul stang..da cel stang...era mai la indemana daca iti amintesti:)crezi ca sunt un om indragostit? ti se pare...e aceeasi iluzie pe care o am si eu..e aceeasi iluzie in care cred si in care ma simt bine. Sunt defapt acelasi om intalnit acum ceva vreme, cea care purta aceeasi dorinta de a-si imagina persoana lui in acea lume fericita..acum ea vede acea lume fericita insa, de care se bucura doar umbra. dar nu e ea cea mai norocoasa...si am sa plec...da, m-am hotarat..umbra totusi te va urmari de aceea eu voi fi cea mai norocoasa...ca nu am sa ma despart niciodata de umbra...astfel nici de transparenta ta.nu te gandi ca aceste randuri le-am scris cu gandul la tine.Nu merita sa stric semnificatia de pana acum, si sa ma limitez doar la un anumit loc, particica pe care crezi tu ca o detii...Ma dezaprob..mi-e frica...dar sunt bucuroasa ca stiu.

EuroJudaica 2007

2007-07-17T20:27:00.000+02:00

Cum am mentionat intr-un post anterior, urmez a detalia unele aspecte ale festivalului EuroJudaica, festival al artelor, culturii si traditiilor evreiesti, tinut in perioada 24-27 iunie, ac.Teatru, dans, muzica, arte plastice, film, interferente culturale, dezbateri si lansari de carte, traditii...toate prezentate in cadre speciale si pline de un aer irezistibil dat de Sibiu, capitala europeana a anului 2007.Spectacolele, expozitiile, concursurile, intalnirile la cafenelele literare s-au acomodat foarte bine in atmosfera cosmopolita si au avut un public care s-a artat receptiv si interesat de a face cunostinta cu aceasta cultura.Astfel, evenimentele au fost bine organizate. Edi Kupferberg, Mirela Ashman, Bianca Stiubea, si toti ceilalti care i-au ajutat,(imi cer scuze pt cei nementionati) au reusit sa multumeasca pe toata lumea, au creeat un mediu placut de lucru in care chiar daca oboseala isi spunea cuvantul, noi am perceput-o mai mult de la serile prelungite in lobby-ul hotelului..:) unde s-au dus discutii si diferite "dezbateri" pe tema evenimentului si a lucrurilor anexe ce rezultau din fiecare zi de spectacol si nu numai:)Oameni speciali, artisti, actori, muzicieni, dansatori, directori de muzee de arte, oameni prietenosi si comunicativi...Am avut norocul sa o cunosc pe Silvia MArcovici(o mare violonista) si pe fiul ei Aimo Pagin, deasemeni un talentat pianist. Am asistat la concertul acestora care a adunat lume de calitate. Concertul s-a tinut la Sala Thalia a filarmonicii din Sibiu. S-a avut grija sa respectam toate cerintele lor, asemenea unui bun PR-ist :) (sa existe apa, om de intors notele in timpul concertului, sa fie masina la dispozitie si presa sa fie la locul si timpul potrivit).Concertul lui AG Weinberger a facut o seara perfecta. A cantat cam 1h jumate. Sonorizare buna si joc de scena incredibil. asemeni unui bun actor, si-a combinat talentul artistic cu cel scenic, astfel totul a fost pus sub lumina reusita a unui recital foarte apreciat.Altii au fost delectati cu trupe de dansuri profesioniste. La teatrul National Radu Stanca "Kolben Dance Group", un grup de dans profesionist din Israel, Jerusalim, a incantat privirille spectatorilor cu un show artistic pe "Anotimpurile", muzica Antonio Vivaldi.Ekodoom, "The Contemporary Dance Company - Israel" a sustinut un spectacol fascinant de dans contemporan. Evolutia lor pe scena socheaza prin imagini vizuale ce raman in memoria publicului. felicitari in mare masura compozitorului Alex Claude, scenografului Maor Tzabar si regizorului Be'er.La Teatrul de Tineret "Gong", Sibiu, s-a cantat si dansat alaturi de Mazel Tov Lezmer Band - Cluj, Dan Cohen Trio - Israel, Pannonia Klezmer Band - Ungaria, formatia de dansuri israeliene "Hora" - Bucuresti.Deasemeni, piese de teatru,("Mere de Guerre", Romanul unui om de afaceri"), recitaluri de muzica de camera (grupul Meitar, Israel), precum un concert de muzica sinagogala si o aroma presarata cu talent de Jazz - Dan Cohen Trio - Israel au facut cele 4 zile ale festivalului un cocktail cu un gust ce va ramane imprimat in memoria spectatorilor.In piata mare din centrul Sibiului a fost amplasat o scena pe care deasemeni s-au putut urmari concerte live si dansuri ale grupului Oradean "Or Neurim Dance Group", "The Slava Farber Band - The Republic of Moldova", "The Prezburger Klezmer Band - Slovakia", "The HAkeshet Klezmer Band- Oradea". Atrium Classic Cafee, din Piata Mica a Sibiului, un local plin de un aer boem a lasat frau liber talentului Nico Nitai, cel care a adaptat o versiune litera, scenica si actoriceasca a textului lui Camus, "Caderea", una din cele mai importante opere ale secolului XX.Sa nu uit sa mentionez deasemeni localul Imperium , un pub stil jazz, cu decoruri interesante care te duceau intr-o lume special conturata. Erai astfel, transpus, si percepeai totul intr-o alta lumina. Chiar daca acea canicula specifica verii a invadat zilele festivalului, incat dorea sa fie si ea prezenta, mai ales la "Recital Maia Morgenstern & AG Weinberger", in regia lui Alexander Hausvaster, totul a fost prezentat cu succes si profesionism.Spus in doar cateva cuvinte, festivalul EuroJudaica a meritat toata atentia si sustinerea celor care au lucrat pentru acest eveniment.
Inca odata multumesc mult lui Edi Kupferberg pentru ca mi-a dat ocazia sa particip ca voluntar la acest eveniment, sustinut de Federatia Comunitatii Evreiesti din Romania.

100 metrii ganduri....

2007-07-12T21:29:00.000+02:00

Ganduri mari, mici, complicate, simple, adunate, rasfirate, departate, apropiate,....vin si vin si tot vin....ce ma fac cu ele? cum sa le impart? cum le tratez?...in ceordine trebuie sa le rezolv...
offff ....si fetele astea..cine naiba sa le mai inteleaga? (cum ar zice cei de partea cealalata a aleei presarata cu gena masculina..)
Unii zic ca e doar ceva in mintea noastra, cu ea trebuie sa lucram, constiinta si presiunea exterioara ne domina. Si ...cu ce ma ajuta explicatia? Vreau sa am ganduri cat mai multe insa sa nu ma duca la extrem nesansa de realizare a lor..bineinteles aici intervine teama de a esua...cred ca fiecarui gand ii preconizam intai consecintele si apoi cum arata acesta in realitate implinirea lui.
Unii imi spun : We're adults. When did that happen? And how do we make it stop?', cum a zis Gray..., iar adultilor le place sa complice lucrurile...de ce? e bine deci sa ma simt copil...e mult mai simplu si mai roz.
Dar eu vreau ceva diferit si simplu ...o "jucarie" noua pentru sufletul meu..insa ma sperie ca nu o sa o vad roz...in lumea mea atunci, copilul are alra culoare:)
deci am sa continui sa-mi spun povestea in asa fel sa o cred...

yamma la comentarii...

2007-07-08T10:43:00.001+02:00

So..am setat astfel incat sa se poata comenta posturile, incat am primit reclamatii k nu erau acceptate orice adrese de email.
acum aveti frau liber la a va manifesta :D

am fost tagged

2007-07-08T10:28:00.000+02:00

dear elf...dupa cum stii sunt in marele "boston" si mi am uitat instrumentul muncii in capitala...asa ca voi posta cel mai imprevizibil tag:D acum...., aducand la suprafata doar partea de copy :P , incat..spun asa..."Toamna asta se numara..barbosii...pardon..bobocii".
parea de art o sa fie exploziva..cu multe ondulatii si pendulatii :) offf off cred ca m-a batut indeajuns soarele in cap. Punct si de la capat. Dau oricum aceasta mimoza creativa spre comentarii si tag-uiesc la randul meu pe emo(intr-un viitor apropiat sa speram ca-si va arata carapacea in forma de un blog mov..sau cine stie:) numai tepi sa nu aiba;))) , dupa care pe raluky si jac.
multumiri ....etc
PS. era de efect daca putea sa ti se vada identitatea mai elf...asa anonimat, mister, modul tau de a supravietui dupa propria-ti forma...let it be:)

Libelula

2007-07-08T10:05:00.000+02:00

Nu se poate trece peste aceasta carte fara a face macar o remarca la adresa lui Martin Page, la tipicul sau mod de a scrie si de a descrie orice prin cuvinte puse inimaginabil de bine la locul lor, incat daca incerci sa schimbi ceva nu mai are acelasi farmec...
Zora, om de om...mare caracter.., Mame, deasemeni un personaj memorabil..
..."momentul cel mai important al intregii mele vieti este forma aceasta desenata in fuga, intr-un camp, de rotile mari ale bicicletei mele rosii, julite, si de fuga catelusului meu. Si din ziua aceea am actionat intotdeauna in functie de aceasta amintire si, mai mult, i-am dat forma oricarui lucru pe care l-am facut. Toate gandurile si actele mele au rasunat la diapazonul acestei imagini.." (...)..trebuie sa gasesti o forma in fuctie de care sa traiesti. Poate fi un cantec, o omagine neclara, poate fi orice, muzica vanzatorului de inghetata, o amintire, un parfum, dar trebuie sa gasesti forma aceea...
suntem niste contrabandisti ai sensului....

2007-07-04T21:59:00.000+02:00

EUROIDAICA 2007, un eveniment de calitate

2007-07-04T21:37:00.000+02:00

Deocamdata postez cateva poze cu trupa de dansuri israeliene, cu care am participat la Sibiu, in cadrul unui spectacol, in ziua de inchidere a festivalului Euroiudaica.

Voi reveni cu cateva postari mai consistente despre restul activitatilor si a spectacolelor...a fost un eveniment foarte frumos si special, ce mi-a ramas imprimat in mintea...creata..:) of, of...

My Heritage :)) Chiar sunt Amelie... un simplu click si vedeti cu cine aveti "onoarea" :P

2007-06-22T10:35:00.001+02:00

http://www.myheritage.com/FP/Company/face-recognition-results.php?temp=9d88b764f0lavc30&server=Server26&database=2&startYear=1800&amp;amp;endYear=2005&morph=1&loadMethod=myFiles

Pictures and Fun!!!

2007-06-20T09:46:00.000+02:00

Macedonia 16-20 mai

2007-06-20T09:25:00.001+02:00

ooo da...am participat la un seminar pe tema : an international change experience...care poate fi interpretata in legea fiecaruia asa cum pofteste:) intr-adevar seminarul a fost organizat in Macedonia. Participantii au fost din Romania, Israel, Bulgaria, Turcia, Macedonia, Grecia, Letonia, etc.
a fost o experienta foarte draguta, cu amintiri de tot felul. Lumea a fost foarte deschisa si bine dispusa:) chiar daca vremea nu a tinut neaparat cu noi...insa totul a fost bine organizat si oamenii au venit la ei cu multe schimburi de buna dispozitie, ceea ce a facut sa fie un weekend reusit.
as putea sa scriu mult despre acest seminar, despre lectiile de yoga, despre workshopurile de advertising tinute de Tziki, despre cantecele f "originale" cu versuri care nu se repeta deloc:)) si despre masa traditionala de Shabat la care "nu s-a baut mai nimic...", despre dansurile de salsa si cele israeliene, despre acel tur de orientare..concurs tinut in Ohrid, mers deasupra apei si prin ploaie, cantat si inglodat, pozat si enervat, aaa si sa nu uit de lebedele alea frumoase care erau f gratioase si stateau f frumos la pozat:). sa nu uit nici de serile din hotel cu program prelungit de voie si dupa puteri:d, de plimbarile in frig, de cautarile dupa inghetata, de acele party-uri cu dansatori foarte dezlantuiti:)) , cu baieti si fete cu chef de ...distractie of course.
all in all atmosfera in care te puteai integra destul de usor si unde puteai sa ti intalnesti cunostintele deja internationalizate:)))) mai vbim....

prea tarziu...?

2007-06-20T09:01:00.000+02:00

Rareori putem spune ca am facut asa cum trebuie, ca nu a mai ramas nimic de adaugat sau ca nu vrem sa ne intoarcem macar pentru cateva secunde de unde am plecat si sa vedem daca nu se poate modifica ceva, sa schimbam si sa modelam asa cum ne am dori...mda..se stie.
nu am mai postat de mai mult de o luna pe blog..mi a fost dor de el:) insa nu consider ca e prea tarziu acum, cand m am hotarat sa scriu...de ce? nu am simtit si nu am avut that proper mood sa scriu, cu toate ca mi s-au perindat o tona de ganduri care acum stau prafuite prin diferite "camarute" si nu mai au o ordine fireasca...insa ce tine de viata mea..e ciudat ca ceea ce mi se pare cel mai indepartat revine in ultimul moment, bineinteles cand ma astept mai putin...insa in alte culori si creeaza starea aia..."de ce???", "nu inteleg"...probabil "e prea tarziu"...chiar daca nu as vrea...
are vreo logica ce ati citit pana acum? desigur ca va ganditi k vbesc despre anumite persoane..nu pot sa neg intru totul :d insa vbesc si despre unele fenomene la care as vrea sa am o explicatie si nu se poate...am ajuns la concluzia ca nu e bine sa stii totul, pentru ca nu ai mai avea acceeasi liniste, viata, ..ar fi prea monoton sa nu apara ceva spontan si raspunsuri incerte si ocolite ....ziceti si voi, nu e mai bine asa? sa te joci putin cu creierul omului, sa vezi cat poate sa te suporte, sa te uiti in ochi si sa nu poti citi nimic:D , sa fie o nebuloasa totala insa intr o alunecare periculoasa continuua....
sa nu stii ce vrei..e mai rau decat a nu intelege fenomenul...(zic eu). a nu intelege o persoana e cat se poate de normal si nu e tarziu niciodata sa incerci sa-i descoperi unele ganduri din simpla atitudine si fizionomie.
m-am "jucat" mai mult de o luna intr-o lume in care nu as fi acceptat-o acum 2luni..suna paranoia:) dar chiar asa e. am ajuns la concluzia ca nu am reusit sa respir usurata si m am simtit usor testata, insa acceptata dintr-un punct de vedere.
daca vrei sa stii cand e prea tarziu...renunta la ceva care e liber ...:D pt ca apoi stii k nu ai ce sa mai pierzi, apoi, realizezi k libertatea este totusi limitata si vei realiza ca e prea tarziu sa fi si tu integrata in lumea ei...

Just a little bit jazz

2007-05-09T10:10:00.000+02:00

si am fost aseara la EUROPAfest, la un concert just..WOW :) foarte fin si de calitate, foarte deep si de bun gust, foarte foarte foarte:)
un singur incovienent a fost spatiul prea mic (hotelul Ibis ) si ca oamenii frumosi de'a dreptul stateau fix in spatele meu;)) uff...i am in that time...when .."the woman" thinks with the other side :))
finally sa renunt la dezlantuirea mea apoteotica de sentimente si pasiune ascunsa a unor..ciudati.
all in all, aseara m am simtit ca si cum am renascut, m-a prins foarte tare muzica si chiar sufletelul meu crestea...
am dat la o parte tot ce mi displacea inainte sa ajung acolo si incet incet m am detasat. Ceea ce a facut "valuri" a fost formatia Larry Franco Quartet din Italia, care a cantat si vocal estupendo:) a mixture of 3 memeber's talent and experience..un recital rafinat si ingenios, chiar se bucurau prin trairea muzicii.
azi va fi partea a doua. sper sa fiu la fel de incantata. will see,

Lume de copil plina de speranta

2007-05-09T09:14:00.000+02:00

sunt chiar nostima cand ma gandesc ce imaginatie inca pierduta si dusa de speranta mai pot avea inca si la ora asta in al aproape al 21-lea ceas din viata..insa nu ma "descalt" de ea si astept sa fie asa cum vreau eu si sa ma bucur de tot ce pot si cum vreau, fara sa-mi pese de stupiditatea din jur si de "sireturile" ce vor a mi da o incalceala sufleteasca si o barierea in ceea ce inseamna " a fi om".
numai inteleg fenomenul prietenie, il vad tot mai departe, probabil e un caz nu tocmai ciudat, stiu k se intampla si la altii dar pe de alta parte stiu k altii sunt si mai norocosi, insa eu nu de asta ma plang. (unii trag de aceasta prietenie altii nu stiu cum sa o dezlege mai repede sa se simta mai bine :) ) Duc si trec prin experiente frumoase, simt, si cresc :) insa lumea e categorisita si prea generalizata...nu te poti apropia si sa cunosti omul nici daca iti doresti. asta e lumea de azi, lumea vrea sa para dificila, interesanta si foarte greu de intrat in universul ei...se cauta originalitate insa nu mi place sa vad cum cineva se chinuie sa fie original si sa adopte comportamente greu de trecut cu vederea.
nu mi plac foarte multe lucruri de ceva timp incoace. daca s ar pastra un"joc" in a te face vizibil si dorit, de fi cunoscut ar fi perfect, insa celelalte jocuri sunt prea dureroase si nu le mai pot gusta; acele cuvinte aruncate chiar daca nu le crezi adevarate la momentul de fata devin prea imprimate in minte si nu le mai poti sterge daca consideri a fi rostite de cineva foarte drag la un moment dat.
numai vreau sa dau inapoi, numai vreau sa fac compromisuri si numai vreau sa fiu slaba de inger ...vreau sa rezist lumii asa cum imi este pusa in fata si sa iau totul asa cum se afiseaza, sa mi dau seama unde se mai poate modela si cat se poate a fi de reusita aceasta modelare, in rest sa pot sa acord careness celor care vor sa o primeasca si invers. las sa fiu privita asa cum sunt, cam asta era starea mea inainte de...see next post:)

Do you have Knights? just for a lifetime...

2007-05-04T13:23:00.000+02:00

hey..da tu..mi a fost dor de tine..sa nu crezi ca te am neglijat..nu nu absolut deloc. in fiecare zi ma gandeam la tine si ce sa ti mai zic, dar, au ramas doar ganduri refulate si nesigure care au fost puse in sms-uri si sterse inapoi destul de repede k realizam k ar fi o dezarmare din partea mea:D finally de'ale mele.
acum m am apucat foarte pe nepregatite sa ti scriu ..cu toate ca ma pregateam sa citesc apometrele, dar termin totul intr-un final.
sunt trezita de 2zile si in fiecare zi realizez ca am fost plecata cu 3 nebune ...de nebune ...prin tara..sa sune mai a "spontaneitate" :P a fost niiiiceeeeeeeee. scopul nu pot sa zic ca a fost o iesire de 1mai neaparat, cu toate ca nu mai fusesem special de 1 mai undeva..insa a vrut sa fie o iesire, un aer, un gand curat si relaxat, cu iz de aventura si dc nu, o escapada a mintii, s alas deoparte bucurestiul si lucrurile ce nu ma fac neaparat fericita aici...
am facut destul d emulte lucruri pt timpul avut si cu asta sunt impacata:)
coji de alune americane, lumanari, strazi, munte, spital de nebuni:D caini pufosi si mari ...nas rosu si vant ...atat cat cuprinde pt cea mai buna dispozitie.
aa si festival medieval si pub uri si flooori si chec proapat:)
pup drag roxanei, monicai si ralucai pentru ducerea spre reusita! si k mi am facut curaj sa urc la turn ...si sa trec apa cea frumos curgatoare:)
cavalerii sa ne urmeze pe un cal alb:D stim noi...

bLOC DE DAT CU CAPUL

2007-04-24T18:27:00.000+02:00

Da..cam asa e. am dat cu capul insa intr -o experienta frumoasa :d si din care am avut de invatat foarte multe. nu a fost sa castigam dar totul va fi bine, sa speram ca asta e cea mai rea parte a carierei noastre:D
in rest, alte cuvinte sunt de prisos, e de inteles ca au existat asteptari, a fost si acea incredere, deh... ca la tot omul. Dar viata nu e ca un tort, sa ti se aplece de la atata bine, dulce etc..nu! ea te invata sa degusti din toate, si m am saturat de portia asta. trec la felul 1 iar, si mai stau pana la desert, sa prind mai multa experienta!

Emotii furate de ganduri poluate

2007-04-21T10:07:00.000+02:00

stau si stau si stau...astept sa se faca ora de ..sarit in sus sau in cap...s-au dus si preselectiile olimpiadelor comunicarii.
insa ce e frustrant e atitudinea unui juriu ce nu pare a fi prea interesat si care induce neincredere in fortele proprii, cred ca e ceva tricky la mijloc:) ei sunt niste papusi ce vor a fi manevrate de ideile noastre in 12min :) cam exagerat: timp putin, iar sansele vom vedea...
oare dc au oamenii emotii? e de bine recunosc pt mine sa le am pt ca stiu ca ceva se roteste pe acolo insa, ...e un DAR sa ti le poti infrana sa nu simti cum iti clantane dintii in gura sau ti se usuca gura si nu te mai poti stapani, ti se face un blank in fata si crezi k tot ce ai spus e interpretat ca fiind o prostie.
asteptarea boala grea:)

Flori de Martie...

2007-04-20T20:55:00.000+02:00

Palavre

2007-04-20T20:36:00.000+02:00

TE IUBESC....

ce cuvinte simple, pe care de foarte multe ori le evitam..spunem ca parca nu suna asa bine in romaneste, si ca au o semnificatie prea grea si plina de "tot" pentru a putea fi spuse usor.

nu e de mirare ca le auzi asa rar, sau poate doar unii au "norocul" asta. Acum chiar nu fac referire la mine pentru ca eu stiu ca sunt iubita:) de familie, de cineva de departe cine stie de mai cine...ce conteaza a stii?conteaza sa simti si sa vrei sa simti. conteaza sa vrei sa te deschiz cu aceste 2cuvinte. nu-ti pui sufletul pe tava daca le zici, nu inseamna ca ai zis prea repede, ci daca zici la momentul potrivit si nu exagerat de repetat te simti mai bine. Zi le unui prieten drag, mamei tale, tatalui si prietenului...

....te iubesc, nu pe ascuns, nici la lumina, ci in adancul sufletului multe imi spun asta chiar daca nu se vede si nu se vrea sa fie vazut ..generalitatea timpului a vremii si a anotimpului pierdut in spatiu...visez la o perna calda si un aer adanc de respiratie a ta cu un deget care sa ma gadile usor pe picor si apoi o joaca prin par nu ar strica...stiu ca ti e dor de mine si ca ai si tu in minte mirosul unei felii de paine prajita cu multa miere si cereale :) stiu ca nu poti altfel....stiu ca te sacaie "privirea" scrisa doar si ca nu ti place sa stii k nu ma mai uimesti cu nimic..e adevarat. nu stiu ce gandesti dar nu apari surprinzator, nu furi din inima ink un coltisor si ink un coltisor, pentru ca nu stii sa te daruiesti sufleteste asa cum visam. pasesc usor si nesigurm stangace cum sunt dealtfel, si mica de statura, pasesc asa spre o dorinta care o sa o prind in mana, am sa fug dupa ea si nu am sa o las sa mi scape, cat de mica ar fi, o buburuza sa am in mana si as fi bucuroasa..e vie, traieste, are rapiditate, si poate sa zboooaaaree...asta e realitatea toata lumea pleaca sa nu zic ca te paraseste , dar poate fi inlocuita! perpetuum mobile :)

Bloggareala

2007-04-16T11:08:00.000+02:00

Care-i toata faza cu bloggareala? scriu ca sa ma descatusez de anumite stari, insa vad ca inca nu am curajul sa o fac la maxim. Parca aici e un ochi al lui Big Brother care vede tot si analizeaza la sange..finally inca nu ma simt in largul meu. Nu am curajul sa spun totul...As vrea sincer sa ma inteleaga poate 2oameni acum..si sa descopere gandurile-mi ascunse din priviri si intuitii, fara prea multe vorbe..insa numai acum. Insa eu scriu, pentru ca oricum nu mai conteaza; scriu pentru ca imi place sa cred ca ma ajuta in vreun fel acest lucru, ca am sa descopar ceva nou dupa ce-mi citesc postul si asa mai departe. Vreau sa ma citesc mai bine si sa ma regasesc, sa ma linistesc si sa ma simt bine. ma justific nespuns de sinecr, ma critic autoironic si mi place sa fiu uneori pervers de subtila :)) Imi place sa ma simt mereu indragostita..poate si de asta scriu..ca vreau sa zbor de la gandul asta, sa ma detasez mai usor de lume si sa capat indiferenta de care mi e frica si nu o astept niciodata, dar ea vad ca se tine de mine...vreau sa pot sa nu mai dau sms-uri de "back" sau chestii idioate, si sa nu le exprim chiar in felul ala copilaresc si "murdar de naivitate"; incerc sa cresc, sa dau cu capul de zid, sa simt durerea mai tare. poate ca doare..dar asta vreau acum! sa mi exorcizez sentimentele sa ma simt goala interior si sa incep sa plutesc intr un nou orizont de vise...curcubeul meu de vise oricum apare , stiu asta, nu te teme ca nu scapi de mine:) AM SA VIN! e o stare de criza de moment...

Flames to dust, lovers to friends...

2007-04-16T00:01:00.000+02:00

da da..nelly furtado "All Good Things (Come To An End) " she's right, dar nu asta e ideea, ci melodia in sine...am tot asculat-o si ascultat-o...si nu ma satur:) spune multe!

Honestly what will become of me
Don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming

[Chorus]
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends....
AZI m-am simtit bine, cred. Cel putin de dimineata am fost cu gandul la olimpiade, conferinta si alte nebuneli..adevaru ca nu-ti aduce anul ce-ti poate aduce bucurestiul:) chiar si sa stai fata in fata la o masa de la KFC cu un transexual, insa nu funny deloc, ci horror, horrible, cum vreeti voi, disgusting!!!! pe langa faptul cum se maimutarea mai era si beat ...Oh my God!!! am vazut-o si pe si asta, ok:)
E deja 1.05, adik e ziua de 16aprilie...acum trebuia sa fiu in Polonia :(( in loc sa stau in fata calculatorului cu idei creative pt descrierea echipei sau a mea sau a orice inseamna "think" :D mai mult decat a citi Max Weber...pt seminarul de maine...trebuia sa zbor sa ajung la Auschwitz, chiar daca nu e un loc vesel, e special. E special pt poporul meu si pt sufetul meu, pt ca asa simt. in fine..o sa mai fie ocazii!
ma gandesc sa fie bune ideile pt campania cu care participam la olimpiade si sa iasa ceva frumos!
bravo fetelor oricum am facut o treaba buna si mi place!
spor maine Rina sa scrii la test, ar fi cazul!!! e o zi de luni deci se poate sa le faci bine de la bun inceput:) incearca sa nu ti mai pui intrebari care sa ti se sparga-n cap in mii de "cioburi" si asculta "Say it right" tot made by N.Furtado... just...
From my hands I could give you
Something that I made
From my mouth I could sing you another brick that I laid
From my body I could show you a place God knows
You should know the space is holy
Do you really want to go?

.....I just pray

Nimic e totul

2007-04-14T09:49:00.000+02:00

Poate ca asa e mai bine. Va suna cunoscut, nu?
ieri a fost o zi prea "plina" din toate punctele de vedere. prea cald si prea obositor mintal:)
in fine..am ajuns la concluzia ca atunci cand nu ai nimic concret poti avea incet incet totul, pornind de la capat spre ceva mai bun decat inainte; e mai usor asa decat sa repari din mijlocul a ceva..am fost pe inteles cred:P Acum esti inapoi de la un "0" (zero) mai concret spre ce vrei tu sa fie. Orice bun.
scriind asta speram sa mi vina in minte un mesaj pentru o campanie anti obezitate:) nu va intrebati care-i legatura ca nu o sa o gasiti. Insa ma tot gandesc.. poate ca si ei, acei mai dolofani pornesc de la un nimic, ca apoi sa ...continuati va rog..un brainstorming ar fi de folos.
"substanta" filosofica a titlului ramane in parte interpretabila mai mult la aspecte personala, insa oi vedea unde oi ajunge.
ma duc la intalnirea cu 5 creiere care sper sa nu dauneze la sanatatea juriului! revin!

vacanta de ieri

2007-04-11T22:22:00.000+02:00

a trecut super repede timpul..asta e nu ma mai mira. Insa in mine mi s a parut ceva schimbat, adica am inceput eu sa interpretez altfel aceasta trecere..greu de transpuns in cuvinte..
SO..acum ma gandesc ce ma asteapta la bucuresti, chiar de maine seara. Stiu, nu e bine ca o iau
de la capat cu asemenea ganduri, dar iincerc sa vad o noua perspectiva, serios, nu aspiratii ci noi perspective:D poate, poate..
Venit, stat, vorbit, ras, plimbaaaat, filme, prieteni, dulciuri, ..si Carlan in cap..ma mustra
constiinta ca nu am citit ca as fi vrut..mai bine zis mi am carat dupa mine prea multe carti din care am ales doar una bineinteles..deci am ce cara inapoi in bucuresti.
maine plec...NU VREAU deloc! azi am avut cea mai proasta zi din vacanta,..am si vazut un film care nu mi a placut cum s a terminat insa nu m a influentat asa de rau. Altceva e de vina..mintea mea cea bolnava imi joaca feste. ce sa zic, am dormit azi ca niciodata as vrea defapt sa dorm continuu sa nu mai stiu nimic.
Dc nu se gaseste un aparat de setat intensitatea linistii sufletesti sau mai mult...de cine sa-ti placa si unde sa te opresti :D prostii...stiu. Ignore.
deci, a trecut usor totul dar s au batut multe cuie din vorbe doar; in mare a fost prea bine:) cu prea mult timp liber si o agitatie interioara permanenta, in rest o nota de final ..cam 9. mulltumitor incat sa am o lacrima maine pe peron.

Un pitic nu se pricepe la extirpat...nimic

2007-04-10T19:19:00.000+02:00

de ce piticutu...nu da de capatul tunelului? de ce se infunda tot si tot mai mult? atat vreau sa stiu. Motivul e tepos, fragil, sensibil, nebun, drag, fin, sufletist, aproape de unul real:) deci extirparea lui nu a avut succes. E oare pacat? sper sa nu se agraveze si sa nu ia amploare in stadiul asta, in rest...totul tine de NOI si TIMP. Vreau numai rabdare si ... un semn...Atat.

Cucu Bau2

2007-04-10T10:54:00.000+02:00

in fiecare zi ne ascundem de ceva, de cineva, la o privire mai atenta, de NOI. Ne jucam de-a "v ati ascunselea" fara sa ne dam seama, ca sa ne simtim mai "siguri" in unele situatii sau ca asa ne place.Nu mai stim cum sa ne ferim de bariere sau de expunerea la minut in fata unor oameni care nu stii ce gandesc. poate insa ca noi fetele
gandim prea mult si ne place sa anlaizam in detaliu..nu zic ca unii baieti nu pot face la fel, ba din contra stiu cazuri:) dar sa revin..Vorbeam cu un prieten si spunea ca noi, Fetele nu intelegem ca ei, Baietii vor ceva simplu si nu atat de sofisticat; de aceea nu trebuie sa ne mai batem capul cu ceea ce gandeste omul.."pai asa vreti voi toate femeile; si poate ca noi vrem sa fiti doar voi; nu ceva...extraordinar!" hmmm so? la un final..."bagi mainile in buzunar si mergi inainte" . Ce e ascuns ramane acolo doar daca nu ai tu imaginatie.

Cucu Bau

2007-04-10T10:44:00.000+02:00

Melancolie

Just Ping Pong Life

2007-04-09T13:33:00.000+02:00

Azi de dimineata m-am trezit si m-am dus la Iasi sa-mi vad "the relatives" pe care din iarna nu le mai vazusem...Acum scriu de la var'miu de la calculator si e o senzatie foarte ciudata ca e prea mare galagie, multa lume in jur si agitatie..nu prea ma simt in largul meu, dar stiu ca e bine asa:) adica stiu ca sunt inconjurata de lume draga mie si mi se face totul pe plac:)
Cred ca m-am obisnuit sa stau prea mult cu mine si sa nu-mi dau seama cum e sa ai pe cineva drag acolo langa tine cand vrei, sa te ajute, sa simti ca te asteapta oricand sa ii stai "pe cap" si tot asa; se stie senzatia...si cred ca multe/i se pot regasi pe aici. Mai rau, daca am fost pe aproape de a fi in aceasta postura, poate nu am stiut cum sa reactionez, sau de frica, de neincredere nu am mai fost Eu in tot. Totul se invarte acum, parca e mingea cea alba care se opreste iar si iar in plasa de pe masa de ping pong, si incerc din nou sa o iau de la capat: trece cu bine prima data, insa a doua oara se duce pe dedesuptul plasei si iar cad in "joc", si iar pierd...
Nu prea am rabdare sa mai continui ca as vrea sa vad o schimbare cat mai repede!!! si cred ca pot, eu sunt Magician:) daca mai stiti..cantecelul.

ThOuGhTs

2007-04-08T13:25:00.000+02:00

A hand caching a thought

Tot ce pare complicat se descoase fara sa ti dai seama. O lacrima se sterge una pe cealalta si eu raman uscata. De unde vine lacrima..de ce ne vine sa plangem cand gandim prea mult? De ce ne ducem departe cand picam pe ganduri? Cred ca TU esti de vina...nu te simtii chiat 'tu', doar "tu"
in pozitia ta personala...m-ai inteles, nu?:) stiu...insa cam asa e.
tot timpul stam si analizam...si acum ce urmeaza?Nu ne putem opri din a lasa ca oamneii sa plece din gandurile noastre...permanent tre sa fim in "circumvolutiuno-miscare"; sportul acesta e asemenea mlastinii cu cat te cufunzi mai tare te trage de tot...de aici simti
ca nu mai ai scapare;
sa nu o luam asa de tragic, totusi.
Happiness starts with your thoughts.
Negative thoughts keep you repeating the same behaviour.

Our thoughts create an atmosphere in our immediate surroundings as well as spreading
vibrations in to the far distance. The quality of our thoughts and the concentration of those thoughts in the atmosphere will create much more impact than our words. (suna mai bine in engleza:) )
Consider your thoughts to be invaluable treasures
and use them in a worthwhile way.

Gather My Thoughts

Si aici am ajuns sa dau peste lume, chiar daca poate sa fie blogul ca si confesor..insa trebuie sa mi adun gandurile si sa vad cui am curaj sa i le expun. asa ca rabdare:) te las in lumea mea, chiar te vreau in lumea mea, si imi doresc enorm sa imi pot aduna gandurile doar pentru tine. oricum ai sa fi aici mereu si nu am sa uit nicodata nimic!!

Recyclable Thoughts

Mai toata lumea are o obsesie...se da spre filosofie cand incepe sa-si scrie in blog..parca ar vrea sa impresioneze cititorii sau mai mult sa faca pe artistii..e adevarat nu oricine cred ca poate avea un blog serios(pt fiecare serios si-l explica cum vrea) insa eu tind sa cred ca blogul e inca momentan un brand de urmat si de acoperit un gol pt "your administrtative profesiune"
Sincer am auzit
pe la conferinte "TRBUIE sa va faceti BOLG!"...am zis..hmmm...cu ce ii fac eu pe "EI" sa ma creada mai desteapta cand o sa-mi citeasca gandurile? Oricum noi toti suntem diferiti...unul poate sa-mi dea dreptate, altul sa zica "mah..da ce prostii poate sa scrie..." so...la ce folos? putem selecta noroc ca e democratie:P si am prins-o si pe asta.
Chaging Thoughts

Metamorphose
The Head

Ce ar fi de azi sa nu ma mai gandesc la ce va fi maine?..cam imposibil pentru mine, sincer cred ca mi-e imposibil. Cum ar fi de azi sa fac lucrurile asa acum le am lasat incepute de ieri? sa ma opresc din "first think, then act"... ar fi un haos...ca si cu atomii, daca nu ar fi o natura care le stie pe toate, am fi "dezmembrati" la propriu si la figurat:) sau mai stii? poate si filosofii au gandit prea mult:)
Insa nu pot sa renunt la gandurile mele de minut. E ca si cumm-as simti pustie, goala pe dinauntru fara nimic care sa ma tina "treaza".

Dreams

2007-04-08T11:24:00.000+02:00

Cold Music of Time

Just pure and cold sends me an air of prosperity and cleaness. Simple and gorgeous tunes.
Predicted Time

Only you can be so unpredictible, to be above everything and to realize that YOU are in the middle of the Universe. Time gives you strenght to overcome even the sharpest things.
Sense of the Life

O multime de simboluri = sensul vietii. Copacul-timpul, scara-viitorul, ochii-Dumnezeu, singuratatea- razbaterea, gaurile- proper mistakes, de la mic la mare, intotdeauna se ajunge acolo unde prapastia se termina,....
Music on Earth

aduce ceva in comun cu ying si yang..asa cum lumea greu se desprinde de muzica pe pamant:)
Game in Nothing"

toate sunt puse la locul lor; "Nothing" aici e mai mult decat "Everything" impropriu zis dar spune tabloul mai multe:)
Grain Humanity

In natura ne-am nascut, in natura ne ducem...
dreams
Am ramas pur si simplu mesmerized sau pe romaneste "cu gura cascata" cand am vazut albumul dintr-o galerie de arta contemporana. Mi s a potrivit si starii, insa sunt si foarte reusite!
Culorile si liniile spun 1000 de cuvinte.
just dream about it...

pentru a fi confuz...de ce eu?

2007-04-08T09:22:00.000+02:00

de dimineata cand am pus mana pe telefon era ceasul 10:10 am, ora la care m am nascut:) de multe ori ma gandesc...cum a fost si cum aratam:) mi ar fi placut sa am o inregistrare de la nasterea mea:) serios vorbind as fi interesata sa vad cu ce-si umple timpul un bebelus:)...cred ca acum am ajuns la stadiul sa am prea mult timp liber, de visare si de pus intrebari.."asa cum imi place mie", la care raspunsul vine din fapte cel mai adesea. Insa bine ca am fost eu cea care a ramas idle, insa nu pe messenger ci pe picioare:)

Viata spinoasa / A Spiky Life

2007-04-07T21:51:00.000+02:00

Chiar credeti ca stiti ce vreti de la vietile voastre? sau chiar credeti ca totul are o ordine nerastalmacita, incat tu nu poti schimba deloc "viitorul"?
Eu cred ca nu ne dam seama uneori ca totul sta in puterea noastra de decizie si mai mult...de intuintie. Acel al saselea simt:) cred ca exista.
Am gasit o poza foarte sugestiva la o intrebare deloc surprinzatoare: "oare ce va fi?" pai..."nimeni nu stie". Asa as fi raspuns si eu pana acum o saptamana poate. Acum chiar daca totul e neclar, inca, tind sa cred ca noi ne facem drumul, noi ne putem pune flori de o parte si de alta a lui, a sufletului si a
realitatii, incat cand
pasim sa ne fie bine si sa nu ne "intepam".
Copacul de aici are si el o baza solida..insa neclara, incat nu stii exact cu ce te ajuta ce ai facut pana acum, mai mult prezentul este mai aproape, il ai in mana, te "joci" cu el, chiar "da sange", insa cand te uiti spre viitor intrii in declin, intr o strare ciudata pe care crezi ca n-ai sa ti-o poti explica prea curand. Cu toate ca ...esti sigur ca tepii vor creste si vor ajunge si pana acolo...Totul ne urmeaza.

IceBreak

2007-04-07T21:31:00.000+02:00

In sfarsit am ajuns si eu in seara asta sa dau click pe "create a blog"...dupa o luna de ganduri rastalmacite daca sa-mi postez cuvintele/gandurile/viata ...intr-o palma deschisa. Cred ca va fi challenge si pentru mine treaba asta, incat voi fi nevoita sa mi asum responsabilitatea de a-mi putea recunoaste toate "amprentele" lasate in urma...
De aici, se intrevede un drum prafuit si lung, pe care sunt hotarata sa pasesc
fara sa aduc regrete vreodata. Praful aduce ochi rosii, sper sa nu fie vorba de acei..ochi rosii sau de acel praf...
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