The Boulevard of Broken Dreams becomes cleaner

words mumbled in my head and played hide and seek.
they try to tide me up..
selfishly i discover my sins and i turn them in breezes of faith and self control.
i miss my innocence ...just a loss of it and i cannot find any trash back.

i could start an attack towards me and towards my paranoia feelings. though, this status doesn't help me at all. anyhow, the age is not the only one which plays with you and with your existance. questions play randomly and go among your thoughts, thurstly trying to find those well hidden answers which you can't see.

looking for the right thing, it will always be a personal challenge, automatically transforming your instincts of culpability, of your inner weaknesses, in your biggest enemies. therefore, the wall is settled and the reason you cannot attend your target is just a problem of your trust and tiredness, from your past experiences, or from a dissapointment you've just encounted.

its not always the best option to analyse the phylosophy of life, but go for it in the foggy way you might see it. pass it over, walk firmly as you'd just revived from a long recovery, as everything looks greener than on the other side you just left behind.

Lost,

cuz im back home...

Thank you,

People from Media Central:
Avital, a really special friend, trustful and helpful, energetic and careness.
Danny, who always makes me cry at the phone, telling me too many nice things:) - Im so happy to be your friend!
Oded, always crazy, surprizing me with his weirdo stories:) and burning me DVDs with movies and "gaza experience" :)
Suheir, whom i will always remember from the field tours done together with the journalists.
Rhyannon, a very nice Australian girl, whom i will share the best humus in Ako, hopefully soon:)

Nontheless, Aryeh, from whom I learnt a lot, acting and working in a professional environment.

Moreover, sharing an office with 3 israelis, 1 palestinian, an australian, Aron the English guy, and sometimes with the peanut butter of Rachel, the American, was amazing:)

woken up

from an illusion
searching the foggy present
try to cover the future with invisible thoughts
easy, i can jump...

15 days left

It's 1st February...
It's the end of a former beginning and a start of a next end...
It's depressing
It's weird
It's raining
It's plain but flooded with amazing memories
It's alone - the soul
It's still trustful
It's sunny now - in my office, through the window blinds the sunbean brightened my mind

i will be happy soon again
i will leave home soon again
i will see my future soon again
i will feel a mess soon again
i will be a self-destruction soon again
i will make some mistakes soon again
i will take risks soon again
i will not be patience soon again
i will wait to come back soon again
i will miss you too soon again...
i will continue to be "me". just like this in the way u cant handle.